met wahyuni, hugged her like thousand years tak jumper siol.
then jana came, hugged jana till we lie on the bed.
wahseyy, i love you all(:
im tired lah. damn tired sial.
ader orang paitau lahhh siol!
kater nak jumpe, abey cakap besok.
aku rindu kama. tak salah kan?! cb.
aku rindu khairul ezzad jugak!
brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. kaybye!
ps: sucker-dim chris is my song okay.
cb!

CHITA TECKTONIK,

ELFI SEBOK BODOHHHHHHHHHHHHH! cibai kia!

went to cousin's open house.
siol lah. sumer colour hotpink and black siol.
jambu pe! hehs. okay, whatever lah.
orang tu kater, dier nak belikan aku "5 rumah" hahah!
macam paham. and kama & azlina baby, thanks for being there listening to
whatever happens to me nowadays uh. seriously, THANKYOU G-BON AND BELO!
(HAHA! SACHOK!)
eh kama, smlm loyang point! hahahahahahaaaaa. kaninna! padan muke kene rabak!
orang pike kiter gado siol(:
eh people, shahrul joget tecktonik lawa siol. uh, ni shahidah joget pulak! lagi jambu!
meeting my baby jaws soon. azlina, jana, wahyuni. i miss you b):
abey, just now go kedai mama, that mama say "you look like rihana." then he started laughing.
mampossss! uh ni azlina pey kawan lah ni! azlina kater rihana, nuwyrah kater dora!
bagos! ergh. im tired ah. looking forward for tommorow baby!
wah! jana fingers going light pink, mine going red! wooo. kiter sexy per jana!
dearest j-a-w-s apape picet aku okay? i will always be here for you all. <333

this is today's post.
listen to my blog song! it's fucking nice.
swear sia. techtonik jugakkkkkkkkk~
i've cut my fringe yesterday. bangs~
haha. da betol betol macam dora the explorer lah NUWYRAH!
(kau suke kan) (((:
sorry jana and wahyuni i cannot pick you guys up today. ):
i miss you all fucking much!
im very tired and im sick ah.
ARGHHHHHHH!
azlina, you know about yesterday kan? yang dekat bawah blk?
"biar rahsie pecah diperot, takmo pecah dimulot siol!
i just cant wait to turn 16 years old. 16 freedom, sixteen cann ..

"hidop skali, sume mau jamah pe."
"dekat luar matae, dekat dalam single!"

you know, im addicted to techtonik.
serious uh. and, i seriously hate this family ah.
how the fucking hell you want me to change, if you all treat me like an animal sia?
stressssssssssss siol! okay, apape. i got to go now.

i will be posting blog soon okay? ):
TECHTONIK IS SO COOL SIA.
TURN ON THE MUSIC
FEEL THE BEAT
SHAKE YOUR HANDS
MOVE YOUR LEGS
and you will get high.
psst, try to shake okay.
seriously, fun. release sumer stress dekat kepale otak!

EHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
SIALAH NI SUME JANTAN.
ERGHHHHHHH!
eh jantans, korang maseh ade untok aku pe?
sume jantan lancaowey lah. sweet talk ni sume.
eh tak salah per aku contact dengan orang ke nak klua.
sialah! dorang sume ader untok aku.
bukan macam korg. sume kater-kater aje!
ORANG KATE, BOBAL TAK GUNE KALAU TEMBAK TAK KENE.
jantan, jantan. same lahh korang!
jantan? haha. sanggop mati untok pompan lah, sanggop ini lah sanggop itu lah!
sialahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
maybe tu pompan suke per sumer jadi macam gini. hah, good for you siol.
CHAOCIBAI! jalan tengok kiri kanan depan blakang siol.
ni serious uh, aku da takde maser sia untok ni sume.
yang aku tau, ade pegi ade balek ah.
"if i would cry, it wouldnt change the colours of the sky."
betol siol ni. abey aku buat ape nak buang maser nanges ni sume?
shahidah, move on siol!

Wish That I Could Move On
Can't Let Go, It's Too Strong
Just Like That And Then You're Gone
Is This How You Wanted It To Be
Everything You Had To Say
Sent The Tears Right Down My Face
Now I'm Trying To Escape
The Misery
Why Don't You Love Me
The Way I Loved You
It Feels So Crazy
Cause I Dunno What I Did To You
If You're Gonna Hurt Me
Then Do It Quickly
Cause I'm Tired Of Cryin
If You Don't Wanna Stick AroundThen, Baby, Forget About Me!

MY PASSWORD NUMBER FOR MY HANDPHONE.
THREE EIGHT SIX EIGHT NINE THREE THREE.
what the fuck? can i forget about all this? he is just using me.

"If you love somebody, let them go,
for if they return, they were always yours.
And if they don't, they never were."

Eh aku ni macam berdosa gitu eh kalau aku rindu orang.
siol lah, kalau aku rindu korang pon ape guneyer siol?
korg da basterd aku pe, erghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
im sick and tired of this games.
ive gotta be strong and leave you behind.
i loved you once, and youre the last one.
I AM GOING TO MOVE ON!

fuck sia, i can only use 2hours of this stupid computer. okay go!
yesterday went all the way to kent ridge with my baby azlina.
then went downtown with azlina&kama. dorang lagi gerek sia dari korang.
singing this song all the way. untok tu jantan ah!
DIMANA KAH YOU BERADA,
I DKAT SINI MACAM ORANG GILA.
BETAHUN SUDAH BERLALU,
YOU KATE JE YOU NAK TUNGGU,
MANE PEGI SUME I LOVE YOU,
MANE PEGI JANJI JANJI DULU.
(we change this part)
YOU NAK PUKI I DA BAGI.
YOU NAK DOGGY I DA KASI.
YOU YOU YOU YOU, I BENCI YOU.
I JADI SUNDAL, SAME MACAM YOU!

KAU KATER KAU BUKAN MACAM JANTAN LAEN?
KANINNABU SASUEY NABEY LANCAOWEY.
to that bloody fucking boy.
i had enough of you!
just remember this, that slap and that ring ive thrown to you,
wasnt enough for me. actually, ader lagi banyak uh. tapi,
im just sick and tired of you. pembastard! penipu! sweet talker mother fucker. ape?
kau takot takder kawan per next year? yelah, aku kan da stayback.
aku nak ckp uh, kalau kau taknak musoh dgan die, musoh uh dgan aku kay.
kau yang buat aku nak musoh dgan kau lah sia. fike ah! fuck sia.
"aku bukan pompan murah,
yang kau boley buat pakai atau buat main siol."
aku ader hati, aku ader perasaan siol.
ni care minah rep ah.
TAKECARE SIOL!

MUHD KAMARUDDIN BIN KHIRMAN.

"i miss you fucking much lah.

*sigh*

i dont know why lah.

I've not been posting blog lately.
im sorry, im busy.
from me and wahyuni:
kama, alep, radhi, eddy, bana, rasyhid, and the two mat motors, thanks tau. (:
i mean, thank you sebab korg turon that day. atleast you guys standby. <3
kama, i miss you boy. ):

can i say something to suri? that bloody fucking girl.

"ader pegi, ade balek tau.
kiter mesti return punye!"

aku tak bobal macam paham, macam care kau bobal tau girl-girl.

eh, kau bawak turon ribot pe kan tu hari? abey mane kau gone biler crite da tutop? kau balek?takot? haha. kau yang carik penyakit kan? nanti pandai-pandai kau carik obat okay suri? nanti kau tengok okay pompan. aku taknak kau tengok jer, aku nak kau rase kay. hah!

and, i am not trying to be fanatic here. im so pissed off with that girl. ergh!

AKU STRESS LAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
fuck me, fuck you, fuck them, fuck everyone!
my heartpain. pain! im tired of crying lah.
fuck. im so weak!

yesterday was AWESOME. but not that awesome without durrah nurul jannah.
JAWS was not complete. :/
went to e-hub, downtown & pasir ris park.
had a hell fun with that kambeng & berok.
espacially in the toilet. -.-
meet alep & syakir. alep wallet hilang.
alep, chill okay?
today? imma good girl lahh.
clean up my messy room.
i wanna start to read eng books uh.
i dont know why i am so hardworking today! (:

I've been thinking about how my future will turn out to be.
For the time being, i dont want to stress up myself with all this fucking shit problems.
I want to move on, without a boyfriend. *thinking*
now, i am going to stand up and make things change in my life.
(change for the better.)
today, meeting J A W S arnd 3.30. going to call azlina, that lazyass! going to e-hub(:
nashriq, im not ready to meet you. im sorry.

around 21.59, nash called.
nash: hello, besok nak jumper tak?
shahidah: err, asal eh? nanti ader aje o-r-a-n-n-g yang..
nash: nak taknak?
shahidah: err.
nash: nak taknak? for the lasttime me & u jumper.
nash: apape besok msg my hp.
shahidah: k, bye.
i dont know what is going to happen with my lovelife.
i have to bloody live with it and move on, right? stress!
yes, i am not fucking ready for a serious relationship.
aku taknak kehilangan orang yang aku sayang, LAGI.
i am trying to be strong, but my strength is washing away.
all ive got now is, my darling bestfriends & girlfriends. <333333

I am not those playtoys that you can play with, boy.
I just cant stand it anymore.
Wtf? I wont disturb that fara and nashriq lahh okay?
aku tahu aku pompan sundal, tapi aku tak akan menyundal sampai rosakkan relationship orangg lahh okay? aku pompan yang bobal bergune & tembak mesti kene.
I AM THE GIRL OF WORDS. NOW, I MEAN EVERYTHING I SAY.
and now, im going to move on, independantly.
i wont love boys anymore.
i wont want boys anymore.
i wont adore boys anymore.
i wont trust boys, anymore!
"will a boy come into my life and prove it to me that he is the one?" we'll see.
i repeat, i am not a toy that you can play with it.
i will just let things roll.

I am not ready for love.
I am not ready to fall in love.
I am not ready. for everything!
He said to me, "just let things roll."
I dont want to give high hopes. sial lah!
I DONT TRUST BOYS ANYMORE, swear!

to arina: chill okay bestfriend? you must move on. and it's okay to cry!
seeeeee, kiterorg(me&kambeng) sanggop tau turon!
bestfriends comes first.
deeana, i miss the hug(:

happy one year anniversary. my used to be god-brother. my used to be "sweet little bumble bee". cookie monster? brrr. three garden? open plaza? three-three-three? biler cabot skola?
wow. time flies very fast. and, i hope youre happy with your life now. and my life is going to turn out _____. takecare of her.
remember this, I GIVE IN. KAY? HELLO? I GIVE IN.
when i say i'm okay.
i can lie to you, but not my heart.

yours truly,
your cookie monster(boncit).

*thinking*
i think i should just give in,
i know that he will never-ever be happy with me.
all the messages i sent them yesterday.

fara,
"i cant make him happy like you do.
i cant make him change like you do.
i think he will be superhappy if he were back in your arms once again.
biar aku merane, asalkan korang bahagie."
(fara kept denying.)(babe, i want you both to be happy. k?)

nashriq,
you take good care of her tau. jage dier mcm maner nashriq jage shahidah.
takmo saketkan hati dier, takmo sayang orang laen. love her with all your heart.
takecare nash, thanks for all the memories. haissssss. dont betray her.

ay ay! guess what? this is my very first time giving in to people.
see, shahidah da berubah. aku da tak ego lahh macam dulu.
so? be happy with it okay. i just want to see you both happy.
oh, about myself? i dont mind okay. *smile*

this song is for him. (seriously, suits him.)
"bertahun sudah berlalu,
u kate jer u nak tunggu!
maner pegi sumer "i love you"
maner pegi janji-janji dulu?
you you you you i sayang you." <333
tapi, I S A Y A N G K A W A N- K A W A N I L E B E H D A R I - U(:

met J A W- S. today.
hell fun lahh okay?! (untok keterangan lanjut, sila lungsuri ke lelaman- http://herownlittlefairytale.blogspot.com
awww, arina. i miss you alot. see! you cry. i also cry.
our true friendship will not die even though we're not that close.
i still treat you as my bestfriend. arina, dont think too much about guys ok?
yes, what you say is true. LOVE IS A BITCH. but not our friendship ok?
you miss all the sweeet moments? i miss them too. 11years, bf. 11years!
kindergaten times: you love to play with my hair kann?
primary times: i always send you to school riding a bike knnnn! (without complaining tau)
secondary times: baboon and chimpanzee?
INGATTT TAKK?
tommorrow i will hugg youuu lahhh okay, bestfriend!
nights, sweetest dreams. (i'll always be here for you)

awww, i miss my bestfriend lahh okay? (erin, aku rindu kau jugak, tapi lagik byk! mwah)
on the fifteen tau sayang. okay best! arina, chill okay? harap-harap melissa salah org ke?
chill. *hugs!*
(finding old photos) brrr.

no boyfriend? no problem.
have boyfriend? big problem.
erghhhhhhhhhhhhh.
boyfriend? no thanks. (for the moment) haiss.

NORAZLINAA, HAPPY ONE YEARR BESTFRIEND ANNIVERSARY! I LOVE YOU TO THEE FUCKING FUCKER CORE.
eppy msg-ed. (happy 1year 08monthsary) haissssss. sigh*
went downtownnnn with my besties wasssss fucckkkiiinggggg fuckkkkerrrr fuckerous funnnnn lahh! hahaha. yess, jana. i aggree with you. 3=30000000 peeeeeeoooplleeee. haha! *excited sia aku* JANA! ANTAR GAMBAR! wahyuni st bestie got a name already! bengg ahh benggg! kambengg. hahhaaa. err, took neoprint. arnd 7+ wahyuni & jana went home first. kama sent me to afgan busstop. and he waited for bus 3 on the opp/ site. (terserempak ayie & my exbf.) COINCIDENCE SIA! then lepak with, ayie, nuwyrah, nash. pantat mcm ulat sia. lepak tukar-tukar block. eh Nuwyrah, da lame lahh ehh kiter tak lepak ker ataupon ketwer-ketwer like hell just now~ hahahaa. erghhhh! will be uploading photos which that boncit is going to send! arnd 10+ (LASTWARNINGGG CALL SIOL!) then i went home with nash's mp3. pinjam okay monyet! (: i wanna be friend with everyone/anyone. i want to have no more enemies. aku taknakk stress-stress lagi sey. *sigh. no more boyfriends. (finding one maybe) i love everyone! hah! im tired already. *yawwwnnnnnn! goonight people. "b, ilove you! (:"

today. johore trip. zerosix-eleven! whoa. nuwaira & me. lastyear? all memories.
aww, nuwaira. whatever it is, dont stress up too much with life okay SOZTONGSS! (8
er, ate ljs after that trip, laugh laugh laugh. gerek pe! nuraini, youre so noisy ass! azlina bakar.
and, JANA- MBSDB! (i dont want to elaborate it because *aku pandang kau siol*)
babes, thanks for making my day today. and i didnt get a chance to hug nuwaira today, our day! wth. there's always a next time kn? Kama, thanks for sending me home. I appreciate it, alot! It's late at night. Takecare g-bon, apape msg. Err, nashriq. Im sorry if i paitau-ed you for several times already! im verrrryyy veryyyyyy sorrryyyyy. macam-macam sey!
ps/thank you gfs and bfs for making me laugh like hell today!

Happy Birthday To MUHDNURSYAKIR, HANAKHALDONABDAT, MUHDAIDIL, &JANA's small sister(:

so, gave syakir a big-big-big card. celebrated at his house. heh!
&i swear i cant imagine what's going to happen if me and jana(metta head!) were in under one roof. and so do J A W S. hahahaaaaaa. i tell you ah, that Jana has a disease called leukemia.
she will be talking to herself, always! standard uhh, metta! anddddddd, i cant wait to see her hair bald. Jan, ader pegy ader balek. you know what i mean? (:
wahyuni st, im still finding a name for you okay! wait*
I miss you, azlina and firdaous. (bestfriend)

ps: syakir sound me for a patch. *thinking b!

I will be repeating sec3 again next year.
haisss. I will change and i want to change!
I wanna concentrate on studies. If others can do, why cant i?
I must prove that a repeat student can do it. Insya'allah.
brrrrrr, aku rindunyer dengan techno! rindunyer lepak.
alep, yan, eppy, radhi, kama, eddy, syafiq, syakir, azlina. rindu pe!
last yearr, kalau tidak june/november/december, slalu lepak.
pasir ris park, swammpp, mall, bawah block, kewakkkkk!
AKU RINDUUUNYERRR!
ps/ yan, chill okay? aku ader dekat sini tau.

Own an red extension pulak. Hah! colour-colour.
My relationship with them is getting better.
Friendship too. Er, for today.
1november08, hope it will be a sui month for me.
another 03 more days going to be syakir's birthday? omg-.-'
haisss. aku naseb lahhh siol! my parents doesnt scold me about staying back.
they say, "next year, takmo maen-maen." I PROMISE I WONT!
Today- going out.
Tomorrow- kendarat.
Will be busssyyyyyy sia.
I wanna go siap. *wink*