LET's GO OUT TOGETHER LAH BABY JAWS/NANAS/DEE/ARINA and all my gfs~
aini, kalau nak pegi tamp, blang siang siang!
cibai ah. kiter gy shoppping kay babes!
jom jom jom~ next week kay?
jana, teman aku pe rebond?
^^

DONT LEAVE ME.

i need you.

i want your warmth hug.

i want your soft lips.

i cant live without you.

i'll die if i never meet you for just a day. *smiles.

I guessed there's no point saying this now
Its done and you're gone, this doesnt count
But now that you've gone away
Ive realised every day I made a mistake,
you're the best thing i've ever found
But now that i want you, you're moving on.
When you were in to me,
I didn't want to be bothered
But now I finally see,
but you've moved onto another
Now honestly I get the reason why you left
But damn I wish I had you back.
Youve moved on and you dont want me back.
This is called true love?

yesterday went to discovery centre.
then went home, then go teman jana.
then meet baby. *smiles*

*bang!

azlina macam nak pegi perang! hahahaaaaa.

btw, just now in schl. i love norazlina v.much! i dont know why.
she is v.fun to be with just now. cb die!
&jaws is always fun to be with. *kiss*

nashriq didnt come to shcl just now, kinda miss him.):
ape nak buat? he's still my boyfriend eventhough we had time-out.
wahsey! ah, apape la kan.
it's not that i dont care. tapi.. entala.
satu satu nak perangai. ya ya ya, go with the flow.
hope we'll be okay alright? takmo jadi mcm lelaki yng PEMBASTERD TU SUME.
:tkmo pegi contact pompan laen.
: kalau stress pon, tkmo minom dengan pompan laen kay! hah.
takecare kays, iloveyou, imissyou. :D
JAWS TAHU! :D:D *hugs&kisses*

haha. to guest or to those fuking spammers: haa. aku da ckp self-service kay kaninna cb!

TO SPAMMERS!
prangai takmo macam sial uh cibai.
nabey cibai kaninna buey sundal haram pukimak bapak kau kakak kau mak kau peh puki ah.
kepala buto musibat!
tak kacau hidop kau pe sundal, asal nak kacau hidop aku, sundal? kau takde hidop pe sia sundal!
pegi carik hidop kau sndiri ah sial peh sundal. abey kalau aku da pernah kene, kenape sia? menyusahkan puki kau pe cibai tu sume crite lame pe buto! kau da taktau ape lagi nak ckp pe sial? buto ah eh. kau pegi carik hidop kau sndiri ah, kesian sial aku tgk kau.
KEPALA BUTO AH CHAW CIBAI. fuck you~

will be preparing for friday.
parents meeting. mesti tu ms tan ader je lah!
haha, ape nak buat? brani buat. brani tanggong.
nashriq, im sorry if lately i am acting strangely towards you.
bukan ape ah, i hope you understand the msg that i sent you.
everything was just different. oh, i cannot do anything.
eventhough how much i tried, i always fail. ya, imma loser.
i suck. everything is me. seriously sia. im like paranoid.
tmrw, going to schl again, ader photo taking. walau!
*sigh*

now, in school.
er, quarrel him, AGAIN.
i just dont know what to say la.
whatever going to happen, let it just happen.
i cant mess with fate kan.
because what goes around, comes around kan?
aku da pernah buat org mcm sial kan, pernah bastard orang kan.
jadi, aku kene balek lah kan. nvm. i'll just go with the flow.
im sorry for everything, i lazy to quarrel. seriously. macam gado without reasons gitu.
what do you feel eh b if i were to quarrel with you without reasons. mesti binget kan.

today, going to stay at home. (maybe?)
i miss JANA.
i miss WAHYUNI.
i miss AZLINA.
oh, not only miss, but i love them.
lagi-lagi si azlina tu, aku rindu! hehs.
i miss you, cibai! hahahaaaaaa.
all the stupid things that we'd done together.

just now, went garden, slacked with aniz, acap, dee, wan, nash.
oh, before that my muhdnashriq. terserempak with fara's sister. hah!
i dont mind if you still rmbr about your beloved ex.
or you wna make song for her. yes, korg sweet.
im sorry i cant be as perfect as her.
i know that im just being your bloody suckiest girlfriend.
i think you know what and how i feel when i my ownself go meet or think about my ex.
okay ah, you can say that you didnt meet your ex, and i know that's my fault la.
but after all that ive said sorry and i promised not to do it again, yet you still think of her?
i dont know what else to say anymore.
lasttime, i admit that i never ever appreciate people when they are with me,
but now karma happens.
i cannot be thinking about this matter everyday kan? hais!
I KNOW I AM NOBODY.
but one day youll realise how much i'd done for you.

-i -dont- feel- the- love.

"Dear god, the only thing i ask of you,
is to hold him when im not around,
when im much too far away,
we all need, the person who can be true to you,
but i left him when i found him,
and now i wished i'd stay.
cause im lonely, im tired..
IM MISSING YOU AGAIN. "

today was cpa. aku bole buat, aku bole buat! huhu^^
hm, end at 10.15 oi. cepat pe?
just now, i saw this 293 bus with that plate number sia.
*sigh*
jana, hais! sorry aite pasal tadi? apape pun, JAWS SIOL! :D
going out~

PATIENCE.

"be patience and good things will come to you."

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JULIETTE!

"may all your wishes come true, love you! (:"

today was physics paper and math paper 2.
walau. peh susah! hah. tapi atleast i can ans some of the questions.
tmrw, cpa. ape sia? walaaaaaaaaaauuuuuuuuuuuuu.

im so sorry if i didnt appreciate you lasttime.
i know i was wrong. haissss!

HAPPY ONE MONTHSARY BABY!
gue sayang loh! te'amo, nashriq~
i love you, i love you, i love you.
thanks for all the precious stuff that you gave me. you so sweet!
later i post all the pictures okay.


and oh, ya i know me and muhd nashriq baru ONE MONTH IN A RELATIONSHIP.
TETAPI, FAVOUR EH. salah ke aku buatkan die card? hah. "tak perlu eh?" hah! we've known each other, coming to 2years alrdy. aku bukan nak step mane peh big fuck lah kan.
tapi, favour uh, takmo lancaowey pasal orang aites.
hahaha. kau mcm dengki gitu eh. okayla, whatever. i know you're coming to one year alrdy. ya, maybe for you, ONE MONTH is nothing. because you reaching one year alrdy kn? but for me, ONE MONTH is something to me. da kirekan bagos tau. he is everything to me. HELLO, we've gone through thick and thins okay! and btw, goodluck with yor bf anyways! *smiles*
takmo dengki dengki dengan orang, tak baek dan tak bagos. (:

dee, besok go collect collect collect! (:
tmrw, eng paper 2 and social studies. wna go study now!

today, really tired sey. baby didnt come to schl today. yesterday quarrel with baby because of my attitude. because of how the way i talk to him. im sorry baby, i wont do it again. i didnt mean actually as i was very frustrated. hehs. yay! baby fetch me after schl. (macam tak pernah dengar kan muhd nashriq amek shahidah?) huhu. sweet tahu! (: kecoh pe aini tadi dekat esso. very funny sia. her shoes masok longkang? cute sia. funny sia! hahahaaaaaaaa. laughed like hell. then went jalan-jalan with baby to pasar malam at inter then go jalan jalan. fuyoh! punyer lah susah nak ajak nashriq jalan. haha. atlast! another 3 more days to seventeen. but going to celebrate on saturday. so, im just looking forward to saturday. bby aini, chill okay. just chill. i know how you feel. hais. see you tmrw. hoho. sharmeele, the msg sweet lah sia! (: and, tmrw is ENGLISH PAPER AND HISTORY! im going to study~ tc, babys!

today, i really had no mood in schl.
ader pon siket uh, like mcm happy outside, really hurt inside.
i feel like sharing and telling all my problems to people.
but, i cannot. i cannot, just cant! i dont know who to turn to.
nashriq didnt talk/confront to syakir today. ehrm, that's good maybe?
tak keco keco kn? *smiles*
because of him, my parents have to come down to school sia.
ya'allah. lepas satu, satu sia. nvm. like cekgu say,
"awak kene tempuhi cabaran ni semue, awak kene terime hakikat sebenarnye."
thanks jaws, thanks nashriq, thanks dee, thanks arina, thanks cikgu nura, thanks nasruddin, thanks shukri, thanks kama, thanks ariffin, thanks suffiyan. thanks being so caring. hais~
hais now waiting for muhd nashriq to wake up from his bloddy sleep!
he sleep like princess sia. bangon lambat! hm, maybe he tired sngt eh?
okay now, i wanna go study first.

Today, 11may.

I know who am i.

Thanks ah. Thanks for everything~

Im seriously lost in life. Im not sure. Seriously.

Dala, i just dont wanna think of this.

I cannot sia, later i keep crying. I dont want!

At 10am just now, i got to know everything.

Thanks to nashriq&jaws for being there. Haiya. Ape nak buat?

It's fated. Okay, starting from tmrw, i'll be concentrating more in my studies.

Okay, takecare readers!

I love my boyfriend so much.

Baby I just want you to stay by my side,

Since the first day I saw you, I knew,

There's never a day without you,

I'll never be complete without you.

Now when youre with me,

I wouldn't want it any other way,

Through the ups and the downs,

I wanted you to form the world,

Im always going to have you in my heart,

I knew this from the very start,

You would always mean the world to me,

Without you my life'd be incomplete.

I love you endlessly, baby~

today very tired tau!
hm, but with baby arnd in schl. i feel okay!
i miss jaws. i miss hanging arnd with them.
besok jumper tng anugerah okay! (:
now, im concentrating in studies. i wna pass! not only pass, but pass with flying colours.
tadi, settle about ariffin alrdy, maybe?
hm, tuesday. syakir pulak. whatever lah. hope this things will end soon.
hm, thanks deebby for being there an all the advices and stuff. huhu! i love you.
arina, sorry. inhaler besok i'll give back! HAHAHAHHA!
i love jaws.
i love muhd nashriq bin kamis sia.
i love him very much. his everything in my life right now. he meant the world to me. i love you baby!

muhd nashriq, im sorry for everything.
i knw that now it's hard to trust me.
hey, but it's all over kan? (:
i love you lahh baby!
we must be setie okay,
be FAITHFUL okay.
i dont wanna play play arnd with this relationship anymore.
but relax a bit uh, because midyear cming.
hm, thanks to deeana! you know, i know lah kan.
heyyyyyyyy baby! WE LOVE OUR BELOVEDEST BOYFRIEND KAN!
I LOVE MUHD NASHRIQ KAMIS.
& YOU LOVE ASYRAF SALLEH KAN!
i dont wanna have problems anymore, and i wanna be problem free lah kan.
i just have to go with the flow and be patience in everything.
thanks to dee lah sia! and wahyuni, hm sorry lah kay semue org!
hehe. gtg now! MWAHHHH!

today didnt turn up to shcl.
hais.

today, didnt come to school.
dunnoe lah. like lazy lke that.
stupid sia shahidah! midyear exam cming sia!
tapi i dont feel like cming cause tengah mood nak pindah kan.
so, susah siket sey.

i miss being nur shahidah binte sanin.
the girl who loves everyone.
the girl who doesnt have enemies.
the girl which her family loves.
the girl who respects others.
the girl who is friendly, kind.
the girl who is caring, not rebellious, tak step meenah lah kan.
haiya, im changing.
hm, seriously. i dont wanna be like now.

JAWS knows everything lah kan.
about the guy who really really really make me happy kn?
the guy who really make me cheerful all the time kn? hehs! (:
hmm. tckare readers!

i dont feel the love anymore, maybe?
whatever lah. i dont know uh.
he called me then nak perangai?
anything kay.
today, going to meet nuraini.
dunnoe where to go.
later then can talk kan baby?
i dunow what to say sia. aku mendak!

Hais, tng stress lah skrg. nak pindah lah kan. hais!

AND He is so far away.
damn it sia.
yesterday, went to eastpoint with baby jaws, aini&meele.
aqilah and nat da balek. ):
hm, macam nak masok je tu audition. tapi taknak lah! hahahaha.
jaws, you know i know lah kan why im so happy! HAHAHHAAAAAA.
that pictures and videos lah kn? ((:
slacked under the block near eastpoint till 8plus.
then jana, mira and belo bell have to go.
so me and wah nak balek lambat-lambat.
so hegeh-hegeh go e-hub and downtown.
merepek sia tmpt! then went off at 11plus.
thought of going woodland to meet nashriq,
TETAPI, die suroh aku balek. hais. tkpela k. ):
RINDU SIA TU MUHD NASHRIQ!
dala, mid-year cming soon. hope i do well.
and goodluck to all the sec3's!
buat exam dengan sampoerna! hohohoho.
sekian.