im down with flu and high fever. because i miss muhd nur syakir fucking damn much. <3
i swear, i miss him. ^^
get to meet him just now! hugged and im a lil okay now!
hmm. ok bye!

today working. whoa cibai sia. wah not working! aini atiqah entah eh? hmm.
and omg, i dream of that boy? i mean, kekasih lame.
i've been talking about him with azlina yesterday.
bukan [mengumpat] *your fav word kan dulu. ;D eh. cumer just talk talk aje lah kan.
skali sampai termimpi siol~
kkewakkkkkkk.. why i dream of you? you move on alr pah! tknk kacau kau ah bodoh.
okay now, i wna take a rest ah. v. tired!
but the fact is, i cant live without you. i still love you~
ergh siala, i dont wna think so much.
tc, loves. <3

riah texted me yest. (:
thank you babe. love kamu lahh kann. (;
niz, takecare and have a safe trip to tanjong pinang kay!
ingat kau peh [N] tau. tc siol a[N]iz! (:
and yesterday while wating for nadiah for half an hour dkat inter,
i saw that mother fucking bitchxzxzxzx~
whoaaaa, nak step tk nmpk aku jeee. sial!
standard ah, cam slalu! k e n t al. babi tol. *menyampah*
like people say, "standard ah dier, nk step tk nmpk bey nak step hot jee jln sorg sorg pompan then ader bodyguard."
azlina lagi sial, "oh kau nmpk dier? lawa?"
before i get to say anything, dier da ckp,
"dier mane pernah lawa siol slalu pecah ader lah kan kan"
kekek kekek sia~ cb tol.
then met nad and walk around t1, the walk pass syakir's friend work place.
then they say, "ehhhhh"
haha. memang sengaje nak jln dpan situ. cos i kinda miss his friends playing lan gaming together. then i was like "ehhhh, hi. syak takde eh?"
nyettt~ wtv lahhh.
then i took bus to meet norazlina mesnor. (:
then when im on my way home, jana called and we talked things out.
talked with her for like 1hr? (:
hope everything's gonna be okay~
*yayness* jaws going to watch movie and going to arab street~
weeeeeee. hope it gonna work this time.

just now talked to syakir's dad otf.
his dad: shahidah da tak jumper syakir lagi?
me: da tak uh cik. kenape? lagipon dier tkder hp.
his dad: dtg aje lah rumah. dier ader skrg.
me: hmm. tkperla cik. hmmmm.
his dad: syakir dgan shahidah da break ke ape?
saapppppp, dulu. "syakir dgan shahidah da tk kwn lagi eh"
skrg, da maju sehhh. "da break eh" (:
me: hmmmm. entahla cik.
his dad: cik tgk korg asyek gado aje, cik pon phm dier ader panas baran siket.
me: heh. a'ah cik. *i swear idk what else to say.
his dad: dala, pegi baek baek sane dan tkmo gado gado k.
me: ok cik, trime kaseh.
then at 5plus just now, SYAKIR CALLED AND I WAS ASLEEP!
and when i called him back, syakir da kluaaaaaaaaa.
wtfxzxzxzzxzxzxzxzxzxzx. aku rindu sia tuh anak.
aku salah pileh sialxzxzx. aku salah pileh! nvm la.
i wna sleep early today. i dont wna think so much.
tmrw werking.
IM TRYING SO HARD TO FORGET YOU,
but i just cant. noone understands me.

yesterday met wan in the afternoon.
then went up to kama's house, pinjam toilet. (:
then aniz suroh jumper tmpt inter to teman her to buy her stuffs.
tapi atlast, batt dier flat, batt aku pon flat siol.
idk how the hell to contact aniz.
so i walked all by myself to ntuc and bought sushi.
eat alone, then waited for her at small mac kejap.
then dier tkder, then i go afgan.
& hah. gasak kau lah nak buat ape.
kau ader kawan kawan kau kan. da tak perlukan kiter pe? betol tak? hah!
atleast kiter tak kutok kau rabak rabak peh lah sia! tk boleh kene siket eh,
agak agak kalau kau takleh kene siket, dudok dengan mak kau dkat rumah sudah.
atleast kiter still ader hati peh org. aku repeat lagi satu kali ah,
kau chnage kau nyer prangai kau yang mcm phm tu, and people will stop talking about you.
aku bukan nak ckp cam aku ni manenyer perfect ah. tpi da bagos tu aku tak kutok kau lagi jauh.
kau kan ader kawan kawan kau yang fierce tu. dorg tk influence kau jadi jahat kn cam aku.
heh. and oh, kau step kiter suke je kau campor dgan budak budak yang nak step bagos tu.
kiter syg kau, tu pasal kiter tknk kau pecah. tpi kau kan da besar kan.
mane nak spent time dgan kiter, slalau dgan dorg je peeeeeee. sudahlaaa.

Love,

i used to do everything with you. i repeat, everything!

i used to slacked/sleep at your house.

we always cook together.

we played games together.

eventhough only we both together, how boring it is,

you try your best just to make me smile and laugh.

we just dont care about people staring us outside.

like the world belongs to me and you.

but now, things change. and i dont wna hurt you anymore.

and i dont want myself to get hurt too.

i dont wanna elaborate here. nvm,

maybe if we're fated,

we'll be back again together one day.

if we're not, then just remember all those memories.

EVRYTHING! 2years is not easy to forget okay.

but i must proof to them that aku ni setie and tk lyn laki laki laen.

sumpah im trying hard.

im sorry if i've hurt you in any ways.

i dont know what to say anymore.

one last word, TAKECARE LOVE!

I LOVE YOU. it's okay if you wna go with whoever because im not with you anymore.

i know. but, im still here. take good care of yourself.

IM SORRY BOTH OF YOU!

JAWS~

ive been sitting infront of the computer, msging wahyuni.
crying and looking through pictures of jaws and the pictures of me and muhd nur syakir.
omgwawd. i feel like loosing my loved ones alrdy sia.
AKU SYG MUHD NUR SYAKIR!!!!!!!!!!!!
tpi asal mesti aku saketkan hati dier!!!!!!!!!!
kslda fjlsd tnltvnaeiynowtvynioynio

memang aku sundal memang aku sial!
tapi korg taktau, aku yang rase segalenyer sia.
azlina tau. sampai bile aku nk tahan.
aku da macam tkder life sia.

now i know that friends are everything to me.

i was just so stupid.

Meet wan just now and tell every single thing that i've lied to him.
I have to tell him the truth. Dier da tahu semuernyer.
thanks to jana and wahyuni? ya, good. if not aku takkan sedar ape aku buat. (:
siala, tu wan matikan aku gtu mcm je sia. -.-
im speechless and cannot say anything.
wan: kau blang aku uh ape kau bueh aku slame ni, kau tkmo nak lobang tau aku ckp ngn kau.
shahidah: ahh. y'know alrdy kn?
wan: kau lebeh baek bilang semuernyer skrg! *with his eyes* sialaaaa.
dgan pisau siak. sape tak takot siol. aku da cam nak mampos sia.
i dont know what to do. my hp da la die pegang. omg! sumpah, rase mcm hell sia.
but i think i deserve this uh. serious.
wan: kau tau aku syg kau beh kau lagi bleh tido dgan syakir pat chalet?
shahidah: speechless* all the way sia aku diam.
kimak tol! but everything is alright after that.
aku stress! sumpah aku stress. how am i suppose to be okay when [j]a[w]s is not beside me?
damn it sia!

17-chalet. maybe it was my last day meeting nursyakir?
18-meet aniz, then went to jana's crib.
19- planned to go maya with jan. tapi like somtg happen. then,
slacked with the 2boys dengar misteri jam 12 kapeee. huahua. kecoh ah.
tau aku dtg siang siket ah jadi aku bley nmpk si bodo tu dkat safron eh. nyett~
wtv lah kan.
I have something to say here.
Im sorry jana, im sorry wahyuni.
i know you guys tak puas hati with me.
i know you guys know me v. well.
aku taktau sia ape nk ckp.
aku stakat mampu ckp sorry je sia. please.
it's not that aku maen maen kan syakir okay.
aku 24jam dngn dier, and i am the one who is beside him.
so i know what's going on. im the one who feels it.
like i say, azlina knows.
but nevermind. things change alrdy kn?
*sigh* i just can say sorry guys. i love you all.
kalau korg tknk accept aku peh sorry, sumpah sia aku da taktau ape nk ckp.
tc korg. i love you all no matter what happen.
JAWS TETAP JAWS.
i cant afford to lose you guys.

eh babi, aku attach lah okay. aku attached!
please uh. get a life.
omg, im fucking tired and yet can still sit infront of the comp.
tmrw afternoon somemore! 12-5.
sialaaaa, naseb iqah start working tmrw! weeee.
oky, im really tired.
bye loves.

yesterday's work was fucking iritatting.
suppose to come 7mins earlier, then i come at 6.03.
ala, brape minit je sia, tu pon nak biseng. then wah and sri came,
haha! dorg kene lagi rbk. was fucking tired. sempat gossip siol smlm!
wah, "TEEHEES KAPER" tkmo step cute sia. mepek ah~ hah!
after working, eat mac, then tak prasan sia da pukol brape.
luckily lastbus 12.35! sui sui sia. wahyuni aku tktau plak eh.
hmm, abeh jam sia dkat lua! mcm cibai btol.
beh biler sampai tamp, 291, 293 da tkder! terpakse la jln balek kan.
luckily baby teman otf with me. reach home,
then wan scold me about getting home late and i tell him the truth that i work in the airport.
kewakkkk, dier mengamok sia. -.- atleast i tell you the truth.
okay now, have to get ready to meet baby now the go straight to work. yessa same with wahyuni again! TEEHEES! hahah. hmm today aini and iqah going interview, hope korg dpt kay! :D
JAN, wed tgk wayang kay. :D:D

my ppd low, AGAIN! because of you lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! -.-
today working the same time as wahyuni! yessssaaaaa. 6-11.
that day, baby fetch me back home then he saw this one malay guy work with me.
then he stare all the way. apelah! padehal dier takder pape sey. cumer work je dowwhhh!
and hot je! :D hees.
today baby sending and fetching me back home. best uh! :D
im going to be with you till death do us apart.
omg baby, i love you~

LOVE is wonderful okay.

it's beautiful, seriously. cumer pandai pandai jage ah~

i love you lahhhh gangster. huahua!
yesterday slacked with azlina.
pukewakkkkkk, i miss her alot sia!
hahaha. kecoh pe. syg lu!
yan, chill alright? tk pernah sia aku nanges untok relationship org.
but you & riah is just so sweet. serious!
korg will be okay punyer lah.
okay lah, going out to meet baby! :D
tc, loves.

I didnt realise that my true love was You.
Whenever i try to ignore your msgs and calls,
i'll feel regret.
& I start to miss you. And you know what,
i love you so much baby. ):
Yes, i admit that i dont know how to takecare of your heart.
I tell you before kan? But i'll try my best baby.
I can see that you change alr. (:
youre way too good for me alr~
tapi aku ni je mcm sial. heh. aku memang pe.
atleast im trying my best.
I'd never felt this way before.
Meeting baby later^^
i miss bestfriend! Norazlina mesnor!
since the starting of holiday, we nvr meet siah!
i miss getting caught with her, [sumer kiter buat tak kene] wth? -.-
i miss laughing, i miss everything about her~

Eventhough we quarrel like everytime.
No matter what happens, i still love you lah. :D
Dont be scared okay?
Hmm. tmrw working, again. hope get the same time as wahyuni eh eh.
but the people there is v. friendly. hot hot pon ader!
oops, sorry baby.
ala, like you say to me;
"cakap hot je pe, bukannyer pegang-pegang, bukannye cium dier"
same goes to you lah. i just say hot je pe. stakat tgk je, bukan cium dier pe? nyett~
okay now, i wna do my homework lahhhh~
oh yah, i forgot,
to you,
why must i care and think and miss/love you?
if you think i should, why you treat me this way?
you hurt me with every word that you say okay.
you should know ah what you say to me.
i hate you seriously. tc.

Sri wahyuni & Nur aliff sweet siah.
seriously. they are very sweet! last long okay.
that time aje da macam ntah lah! very sweet&cute. :D

i miss jana.
i miss azlina.
i miss wahyuni.
i miss dee.
i miss arina.
i miss aniz.
i miss natahsha.
i miss aqilah.
i miss nuraini.
i miss atikah.
i miss sharmeele.
):
i miss muhd nur syakir.
i miss my classmates,
i miss sitting in class, sharing problems and crack jokes with them.
not only missing evryone down here,
but i love them too. seriously. :D
love as in friends lah kan!
except for one. y'know i know. :D
did i miss out anyone? i think so. but,
for what i wna miss you if you treat me like cibai? hah! wtv. im happy now.
oh yah, i treat you like cibai too. same same lah kan. nyeeett~
jana, sorry didnt reply your msg.
my pp8 low.
hmm, watch 2012 with jaws?
anything. but see the day we jaws's free kay?

if this is called love,

then then then ..

go lah kn!

:D:D

starting to work today.
thanks syakir, alep, wah for accompanying me to interview yesterdays.
siala, 6-11 eh today! baru first day da kene balek mlm.
tkpe, ader org amek knn ^^
terserempak hanizan smlm! hahaha.
dier sempat ckp dier rindu [N] hahaah!
i know how you feeel!
i love my babys lahh kann! :D:D

HEY YOU UP THERE! HAPPY SIXTEEN BIRTHDAY!
enjoy your day today! see you later. ^^

My prepaid low! ninnabu. haiyaaaaaa.
susah lah wna contact my baby. *cries*
im going to miss msging/calling you in the midnight.
1miss call from ezzad?
Hmm. I also cannot ans your call because my prepaid low?
Baby's prepaid also low. Walaowey~
Im going to miss baby so much.
Nvm, tmrw can spend time together kn? :D:D
Okay, im searching for money ni!
bye loves*

Me: what you want for your birthday?
You: i want you to be my girlfriend. i want us to be like how we used to. please bby?
*silence*
Me: oh, ahhhhh. tknk apape?
You: i want you. you dont care eh?
*silent&smiling*
aku cumer speechless je~
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

suddenly wahyuni msged.
hahehu! wna know what?
"Just wna say tht im happy lah to see you and syakir. Haha."
RANDOM SIA KAU WAH! aku peh ppd low.
cannot reply. im proud uh to post this in my blog because i want to show it to you bloody bitch!
haha. kau yang bitch pe, jadi tk perlu panggel org bitch. aku tk psl kau nak ckp aku ape sumer,
sebab aku tau aku sndiri pon tk perfect. tapi da terang terang siol kau sundal! prangai pon mcm sundal. biar ah kau nk ckp apape pasal aku, tpi tkmo eh ckp pasal kawan aku sebab dier tak bersalah dkat kau bodoh! ni uh maksod aku prangai kau cam sundal. tkder keje laen pahhhh? huahuahua. stupid bitch! k bye.
i miss my bbygirls. <33

i had fun with aniz, azlina, acap, wan, nash that day.
hehs! kecoh ah~
these past three days,
alot of things happen yeah~
but afterall, it's fine.
im sorry syakir for not meeting you,
i got my own reason tau tau tau!
wait la till your birthday! :D
2more days lagi je pahhhhh.
hmmmm.
i just love you lahhh okay! :D:D:D

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