Stop playing with my feelings. Im not a toy.
what the fuck you think i am?
yes i still love you, but i just dont want to be a fool yknow.
waiting for you is like waiting for a cat to talk. (ok lame)
makk, 10 years later sia.
nvm lah ok, you just be happy with her.
i dont think that youre FAITHFUL like ME-.-
ok nvm, im going to concentrate with work now.
i have to be serious.
haissss.
from nowonwards,
BESTFRIEND IS EVERYTHING.

Im losing my friends.

Losing my friends.
Hah, it's okay i'll stay strong.
yala, im losing everyone what. espacially my loved ones.
asl sume mesti aku, aku dan aku?
erghhhh!!

i swear i want to drink.
hah, as if you care.
pleaseiwanttodrink):
and tmrw im going to cut my hair real short.
i just, hate myself. idk why i deserve these shitxz.
tell you what, i dont have time for boys anymore.
biken saket hati je. -.-
gy mampos ah!

yela, you just find me when you need me kan?
because you know that i'll always be there for you wht. -_-
but you just take things for granted.
heartpain sia.
life's like cibai -.-

Tmrw working till 5, then having an interview at 4!
aduiiiiiiiiiiiii, mcm mane ni.
sialxz betolxz ahxz. -________-

talking to you brings a thousand of memories i told myself to forget. ):
tmrw's working. nevermind, wednesday get my payyy. ^^
i feel like going out. with you! but, sigh*
ape nk buat -_______-
makkauuu, asl aku feeling feeling siak.
i wna go wild wild wettttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt! )))):

Why you like treating me this way?
I admit, im stupid, and im useless.
Dont talk to me.
Hais.

vomited twice just now. i just dont feel right.
im sick):
im weak):

tell me what am i supposed to do.
oh my god. i rather die than being like this. ):

SUME AKU BUAT SALAH!
SALAH DAN SALAH.
FOREVER AND ALWAYS!
OKAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY,
NO WORRIES. I'LL CHANGE,
TO THE WORSTTTTTTTTT.

I know i suck in everything.
i know now is not the right time to find true love?
im just seventeen, yes still a kiddo.
i'll just let it comes naturally.
fuck all this shitxz. -_____________-

im down w fever.
high fever):
my temp was 39.
hais, i tried to be strong, but i cried.
i just cant take it yesterday.
bye luvs ):

been working these few days.
hahahah, it's been great for me. (:
i just enjoy myself.
but of cos, my mind always think of you):
ok whatever, insyAllah eh my love for you will stay strong.
kimak, mcm sial je.
kau tng happy happy dgan tu pompan, aku pat sni mcm org giler.
hah. nevermind, i believe in what you say that day.
hah! go tell her everything lah bodo. i know you scared of losing her.
wtf, biase ahhhhh, k whatever fuck.
ijustwnasayplsdontuseme.
my body's all aching.
better get a rest now.

Why am i feeling like this nowadays):
i just feel different.
im sick.
im sick.
im sick.
im weak.
im weak.
im weak.
maybe becos of thinking bout you too much?
i fall sick just becos of thingking bout you?
hah, whatthefuck. ohmygoooodddddddddddd! o.o

Does she really know you like i know you, all the little things?
Does she really loves you, like i love you, how can she compete?
If she makes me fight for you, die for you, would she do the same?
This is turning into way more than a game.
She dont want to leave, and i dont want to go,
She dont want to leave and i dont want to fight this kind of war.
Wish I could take it back when i had you
Im always thinking that i can have you.
After all the things that we've been through, why you let all this happen?
you can make me go crazy you know and you wont understand.

stayed at home the whole day. ):
idk why i feel so restless. *sigh.
yesterday me & azlina paitau keje to day also
the supervisor called me, i didnt ans^^
good uh, but thennnnnnnnnnnnnn, idk what will happen.
hope this wed get the pay then alhamdulillah uh.

i miss working hereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee))))):
but i just hate it. bleahhhhs~

I just follow the flow.
k whatever.
im down with flu confirm tk lame lagi demam punyerrr -.-
mepek uhhhh siaaaaaaa. aduiiiiiiiiii.

worked today. ):
VERY tired. tmrw's sunday,
and have to work again):
nevermind, atleast i earn $$$.
aww, just now went to escape theme park after work with the rock.(omg, she gonna kill me!) *smile widely*
haha, tak reti penat lah kan kiter. didnt plan it anyway, we were like, -k jom pegi!
whoaaaaaa, it was awesome! hahaha.
get to shout all my heart out. best ahh! tmpt beach tk gerek pekik mcm org giler. escape ah best! i released my stress by shouting and thinking how mean you are by just dumping me like tht.
okay, i wna eat.
<3

i change becos you change.

ok, ni cool \m/

aniq so cute, love him!

byebye long hair imy):

you know im trying my best to change. cos i know you dont like it when i smoke, you dont like it when my hair is short i know it's ugly and that makes you hate me even more. that's good, so you can be faithful to her (:

can i die i dont think it's worth living anymore):
can i die cos youre not with me anymore):
one day, youll realise *sighh.

Someone asked me if i missed you
i closed my eyes and then walked away then i whispered,
"i missed him so much, more than ever cause i just cant smile like nothings wrong. talk like everything's fine.
act it's all a dream and and pretend it's not hurting me."
i dont want to stress myself thinking of you while youre happy with other girls.
haha, for what? iwanttodrinkpleaseiwantitsobad):
idontwanttothinkofthese,it'lljustmakemefeeldown.
sampaibilerkannkgini. mightaswellidrink,socanforgeteverything.
imjustnotmyself. -__________________________-
shitxz.

Im wondering what you are doing now.
How are you?
Have you eaten?
omgawddddd, aduiii.
i hate you for doing this to me.
but i miss you.
noone knows how i feel. ):
noone understands me, thts the problem.
*SIGH.
i know i must forget about you.
cos im no longer yours. youre hers.
she can replace me what. go ahead.
heh. ive never ever give up on you.
but i gave up alr after what youve done to me.
why must the one that i hate, come but then the one i love, go.
i miss you but i dont love you. maybe you reading this uh?
good uh! good! so you know how much i hate you.

just came back. haiya, im tired. really tired.
praying so hard that bestfriend will come to work tmrw.
amin, cos she have interview. alaaaaa, interview mane mane bole.
biler biler pun bole^^
haiya, all because of that (insertname) ah. SEBOK. -.-
k whatever.
i wanna eat now, jempot(:
ohya, I AM SO WORRIED AABOUT YOUUU):

nk keje carik uh keje sorg.
takde kwn tu pasal.
da terang dier tng keje ngn aku pe.
abeh kau sebok. aduiii.
kau peh pasal la.
last ah last,
SEBOK JE KAUUUUUU. hahha.
SEBOK SIA KAU. knape kau sebok.

new hair, new look, new me.
yes let me repaet, NEW ME.
yay. i just wna have fun.
goodbye~
iwanttodrink):

had a long conversation with you yesterday.
i guess that's the end lah.
yala, i know that ive been saying THE END for 34682648923times.
how can i forget you when youre always on my mind?
you hurt me deeply and you let me suffer.
i have so so many things to type down.
i'll continue later.
i wna cut my hair and i just dont want to be the same anymore.
<3

just came back form work, tiring sia.
hah keje mane nk penat pantat.
adui, my body all aching. );
im just too stress right now.
baby i need you.

going to work today.
): must be tiring kann.
nvm, got azlina confirm ookay wannnn!
goodbye to you.

please go and die.

why you treating me this way?
you dumped me just like that?
comeon laaaaaa, you think this is a game?
why must you do this to me?
sdfcnmaisdffffffffffffffffruiaejfnnkzx cnsdncksdcndc
FUCK!

last two words for you ah,
fuck off!!
I GIVE UP!

biler kau klua ngn dier pon baju same macam kau klua ngn aku.
kau jugak yang cakap dietu bitch.
whymustyoudothistome.
okijustkeepquietandigiveupbyeandfuckoff.

Boohoo, too bad lor kalau kau tk suker. ):
Gy mati -.-
goodbye to you.

i saw you, i wanted you, i got you, i liked you, i loved you, ive lost you,

AND NOW,

I MISS YOU.

I know my blog skin sux. K wtv. -.-
im alone at home. and im bored. ):
i miss you so much.
i know we've nothing to do with each other.
but hey, it's not wrong just to miss you only, right?
but atleast i get to chat with you and webcammed with you. :D
but still, i miss you.
heh.

mns, i miss you.
i miss you.

[Hahaha, aku nyer suker lahh nk ckp ape.
mns ke, muhd nur syakir ker]
susahkan kau isit.
kau nk dier ke kau ape ngn dier ke kau nyer pasal.
slalu kau yang start pe, aku join in uh! fun siket.
tpi skrg kan,
you go entertain yourself okay.
kau kan suke layan diri sndiri. weeehuu.
you have your friends what, go complain to them.
they are fierce, they can help you. *wink
wooohooo.

kau pike kau hot sngt ah sampai tu duer pompan nk dgan kau?
AKU TAK FALL FOR KAU LAGIK PON.
da cukop uh kau maen maen dgan prasaan aku.
haha. bodoh eh tu pompan(s).
kesian pulak. nk blang, tapi ahhh tkpe.
tk nk masok campor. (:

"If you can say it, then you can have it,
so dont hesitate to voice your desires and you can get whom you want,
Chances that you will be hearing news taht make not only your heart go pitter pat,
but whom the person you desire as well"
my horoscope for today.
idk why i keep on believing in this.
mcm betol sia,
oh yah, im prepared for all these shits.

Bye Bye CHAICHEE. ):
yes, i know it's sad to leave that school and im gonna miss school so much.
cos, everything started there.
falling in love in class. HAHAHAA.
dabes da, harlemakkkk.
takyah datang skolah lagy. till december.
i hope i'll pass my eng, mt, sci. amin.
ohhhhhh yaaaaaaa, im just so happy today.
happy cos tmrw no need to wake up early anymoreeee yesssa!
im sorry if i cant fulfill your promise to go in to sec 5.
haha. AKU TAKNAK PONN. buat saket hati je tgk kau kan pompans tu. (:
buat ape?
yayyyyy, going to look for job.
goodbye to you.

no one knows how exactly i feel.
aduii, i cant concentrate just now.
physics chem can do it lah. but history.
slept at 3 am yesterday because i cant sleep after talking to you. *sigh.
why must this happen to me. haiyaaaaa.
kimak! if only i study -.-
aduiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii, social studies dalah tak habes not enough time.
history mepek.
confirm pecahnyer sia.
tmrw math somemore. fuck!
satu bende aku tktau.
mati mati mati.

Im bored so i checked my chinese zodiac.
for the birthdate of me and you.
:" they will not get along with each other. there will be alot of arguements and alot of frictions. but that doesnt mean they cant be together. "
ya, it's true about the arguements.
and i believe in being together.
insyAllah.
ya, i better revise my physics now.
another 4 or 5 more days of schl.
then im out of hell.
byeee.
i still love you,
since 11july2007 ):

ohmygod.
i feel like crying ):
nevermind, im trying to be strong.
why should i be crying because of you?
why must i be thinking about you while youre having fun with other girls?
*sighhhhh.
i cried when i talked to your mum just now.
"cik lagi hmm suke la die kwan dgan shahidahh..."
i just smileeeee.
heee, aqilah and azlina know that i cried.
i cried infront of his mum eh.
paisehnyeerrrrr -.-
i hope her prayers will come true. amin. (:
oh yah, not forgetting what she said "kalau ader jodoh, tkkan kemaneeee"
entahlah. go have fun first.
imyimyimy, comebackkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
aduiiiiiiiii
k no i dont think so
haiyayyaaaa
nights.

HAHA.
i dont want to stress myself thinking bout you cos i know evry single thing alr.
aku tak bodo macam budak tu.
maseh bleh hegeh hegeh eh.
kalau aku jadi die, aku angkat kaki jalan sia. :D
buang maserr jeeee~
buat pe nk saket hati, pecah otak nanges sume untok jantan tak gune cam kau? -.-
hahaaaa.
nvm, aslkan kau bahagie.
niways, have fun doing this.
karma will hit you back.
JS TETAP JS.
oh yaaa, last!
i want my beg back.
kalau nak beg, ask from your girls lahh! blablabla.
kfulllstop!