thank you for the 09 months.

ini ape aku dapat. aku being treated like shit.

you really should learn more about love.

i sacrificed alot. and this is what i get back in return.

im just a normal person.

i have no looks, nothing. my attitude sucks too.

maybe i just dont deserve you. you desrve better girls that can understand you, trust you and all.

not me, im just a piece of shit. it's okay, after this i'l just live on my own.

i'l be okay. i'l be strong. i wont trust boys anymore.

da cukup aku sakit hati. da cukup.

thanks.

kenapa mesti aku yang deserve ni sume.

kimak padehal aku setia gila babi aku kene treated this way eh.

ape sia. tak fair langsung ah. da cukup ah aku sakit hati. cukup ah

tell me ah SHOULD I STAY IF A GUY IS TREATING ME LIKE FUCK!

TELL ME AH WHAT SHOULD I DO!

JUST BE PATIENCE? SABAR SAMPAI MATI KE APE.

KIMAK, YOURE REALLY MAKING ME LIKE AS IF I HAVE NO FEELINGS AT ALL.

TAKPELA. STRESS STRESS PUN BAGUS KAN TAK LAMA LAGI AKU MATI.

ITS OK LA. I DONT GIVE A SHIT AH. TAK DA GUNANYE LA SIA AKU BERUBAH.

PALA BUTO, SUME AKU AKU AKU. AKU YANG KENE TANGONG SEMUA.

PART AKU SUME SALAH PART KAU SUME NAK KENE BETOL.

PEGI MAMPUS

sume aku buat sume tk betol.

buto la. mati pun cantik ah.

i want to die

oh god, please gimme strength. im not strong to handle all these all by my own.

why must you be treating me this way? if you dont want me anymore.

just tell me okay. dont find fault with me.

aku pun ader perasaan la sia. sume part aku salah, part dia betul.

ape sia ni? im sick and you should be treating me nicely. but now, it's worst.

nvm la, i know la who i am k. siape sia nak aku. if you wna leave me, just tell k.

no need to find fault and treat me like fuck! i have feelings ok.

mcm sial ah.

nnt satu hari baru tahu menyesal.

sabar shahidah, selagi bole sabar, sabar.

im just fucking stress. bagus la buat aku stress lagi.

best ah sia pompan mcm aku ni dapat treated this way!!!!!!!!

ape gunanye berubah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i love you sayang.

now, i really need to stay strong.

really shocked after what had happened.

just need baby with me.

thank you for showing me that you care and i will always stay strong.

and to my dad, thank you for giving me your support.

i love you.

im just not in the mood right now i dont know why. i dont feel right.

fuck this feeling!

lips da macam sama. (;

just came back from meeting baby after 5 days tak jumpa!?! *down mood.

hais. im really going to miss you cos one month youre going in. )):

alaaaa. rinduuuu.

haireel sayang, youre the best among the rest.

i know that somtimes i get angry and we quarrel, i always say that,

'jantan sundal, tak guna all' NO okay. i dont mean it.

it's just that im angry and im letting it out. but seriously i dont mean it.

you really change me alot. you change me into a good person.

to stick to one, to be faithful, seriously this is the greatest gift from above.

25-29sept.

the four days with you was awesome sayang. tapi ada cockup jugak ah. -.-

love you sayang. miss you ):

behind all these, i have to admit that we always fight.

yes, always. and i always asked for a break up without thinking, it's just my ego.

#fuck.

but he didnt accept it. untill one day, when i asked for it, then he really accept it.

then i was like oh my god. for real? but then i realised that, org sabar, sabar pun mesti ada limit kan. yeah, blame myself for that. but now, im trying my best to chill uhh. eventhough we always fight, i still love you okay. my feelings for you tak pernah berubah. hmmp, and oh sometimes, you dont know how much i love you. i mean, you still havent see. belum nampak lagi. nvm, i'l just be patient. hais. hope we'l last. i really need you in my life. no matter how hard the situation is, i promise myself that i wont leave you. i love you.

i dont want to lose you. i just cant! youre the best among the best. i swear.

26 june.

haireel sayang, i cant believe that we've gone through this far.

fuck yeah it's just 8 months, but seriously we've gone through alot.

thank you for staying with me and tolerate all my nonsense.

actually, i have no idea that we can last long. but we did. woohoo.

insyaAllah. i love you forever baby, i mean it.

i miss you ): cepat lah klua. i wanna meet you wanna hug you.

tak sabar ni nak tent lagi with you. hohohoh.

you'll be always in my heart.

I MISS YOU LAH! ):

i enjoy every minute every second with you.

omg, youre so gonna kill me right. hehehe.

skinhead for life ^^

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

omggggggg, hehehhehehehhehe.

sayang you haireel. <3

I cant promise you a perfect relationship, but i can promise you that if youre trying then im staying!
eventhough we've alot of arguements throughout these 06 months, we're still together holding on strong. i love you baby.

what goes a round comes back around. karma is bitch isnt it? *sigh.
lasttime, i used to play with guys feelings. heh. but now, nah.
crite lamer semua da habis. i have a new life already.
going to 7months, insyallah we can go far. heh.
youre really the best sayang.
i really appreciate you as my boyfriend and accept me for whoever i am.
i kno im not pretty like other girls. but th thing is that, im not like lasttime.
im faithful now. not like the past i've change. and i thank you for accpeting me for who i am.
youre the nicest and sweetest guy tht i kno. i love you!

puasa already. yessa. but sadly i cannot make it for the first 6days?
heh. 3 aug accompany baby go subcourt. siala, haisss. i dont want you to go in):
so going to court again this 14sep. hope everything's will go smoothly. amin. i love you bi<3

like sotong ah my face. thanks baby for celebrating with me. i love you.
happy 06months too, may we lastlong. amin!

in school right now. walau, cekgu ni mcm bbl sorang seh tkder org layan. sial la. pui!
haha. now in the comp lab, and ya tunggu time nak balik je. im missing my bi so much, muhd haireel): nvm tmrw meet him. gonna hug you k. okayla, i wna sleep.
love you my bi <3

dinner at sakura with family and baby. (:
haiyo bi. i miss your long hair. faster finish ns cn?
4more months. ): man man ceh lar bi.
oh ya, you know what? i love you so much. *pelok cium*

boyfriend came to my place, and he's here beside me right now. hehe he playing counterstrike right now. so cute, just love him so much la. heeeeee.

okay must have faith in haireel, so we can go far. weee. insyallah, kalau Allah izinkan.
hmm. really fall in love with him so much. eventhough he got attitude problem. but i dont know, maybe my love for him is just too strong? ;p
okay, bye.

today is really a good start of july for me.
woke up in the morning just to accompany sayang go poly. hehe. sanggup kn?
yala, cos i love him. hmm. im really speechless now, i know that sometimes im ok, somtimes im not okay with boyfriend. but what to do, it's 05 months being with him already. really really alot of things gone through with you already. you were really there accompaniying me when im in the hosp, thank you very much sayang. i love you alot~
may we last! amin.

i just love my boyfriend so much.
eventhough he always and forever treat me like shit, but i just love it.
hmm, i dont know why uh but i just feel this way.
seriously he's the best.
love you, haireel.

going to botanical garden alone later.
having a boyfriend like not having one.
idk what i do, but if you want to leave me, just leave.
dont let me suffer.
it's ok. i wont disturb you.

ykno it's going to be five months w you.
till when i should be patience w you?
i kno this is karma, seriously i cant take this karma any loger.
i rather die. serious.

MIA for the past few weeks? days? because i went to school EVERYDAY OK. (:
hmm, da berybah lah kirekan. ya, only for lastweek. this week, dunno yet.
sedangkan hari ni je aku tk dtg. (: hmm, so so tired.
just came back from malaysia yest. sempat beli ciggies there <3
and oh ya, about me and boyfriend, we're really having a hardtime.
but now, back to normal. really cannot take it that day till i asked for a break up ):
we're coming to 4 months now. and i know we can make it. because i love you so much.
now waiting for you to wake up, as usual youre sleeping like piggy. eh tak eh. (;
going out with you later. see you soon. love you, 75483 <3

rindunyer biler kiter 1month. coming to 2month also happy. but now, coming to 3, haissssssssssss. susah ah. sabar aje la kan org ckp. pretend to be happy.

im really being patience with you. really. it's okay if i have to cry everyday. it's ok. im really faithful with you. *fuckedup

i've been crying alot these past few days about your attitude. will we last? i mean, can we last? sampai biler sey aku nak nanges je. hais. fuck my life, really. hais. im being faithful here. i kno im not perfect for you. i kno. *SIGH. stressssssss. sabar shidah. sabar.

muhd haireel!

i really enjoy my time with love today. from 11 am till 11pm. 12 hours baby. cannot take it already. <3 get to swim with you, get to really sepnt time with you. hehe. you kno right how much i love you? i kno it's just been two months we've been together. and i love you so much. you never fail to make my day baby. cant afford to lose you. and i really thank god that ive found you. because youre the best. im serious about this. love you, always. oh yah, bout my schl. omg, it sucks. i just hate the course. im quitting soon. i swear. cant take it anymore. sorry guys :/ heh. but it's the best for me i think. im gonna get a job, and when the right time comes, then i study la. k? haiya, im very sleepy now. and baby's otw home. jurong somemore :/ i feel you baby. haisss. im sorry lah if i stay far frm you. ok that is okay. you jangan sleep on the road sudah :/ tkmu sey mcm mcm, you kno i love you so much kan. <3 okay, wna off now and waiting for your msg.

sampai senget.

two more days and it's our second monthsary.

youre the best baby. im glad that i found you.

eventhough that youre iritatting at times.

for these past two months,

thank you for being there when the time i need you most.

though nobody is perfect in this world, youre still the best for me.

i love you wholeheartedly bay. <3

Love my boyfriend so much. (:
i dont know what else to say.
love you so much baby<3

ITE COLLEGE EAST IS AWESOME!
awesome classmates, awesome people! :D:D
i enjoy every single day when i go to school.
tapi part bangon pagi tu, mampus aku!
mau masuk skolah lambat sia hari hari aku.
maintain je.
but seriously, awesome.
hehehehheheh.

eh kau gy buang bangle aku sudah. k? bagus.
mintak kau nyer pompan ah. -.- ahhahahaha!

aku tk paham betol uh ngn kau.
part of my life siol! tkleh angkat! hahah. we'll see how far you'll go uh seriously.
this year da nak masok 18, tapi pikiran maseh mcm budak 8 tahun. kesian betol lah kau nie.
lepas ni pompan mane pulak? bagus uh kau. maintain uh kau prangaii gitu mcm.
agaknye pasal kau da tak laku kot tu pasal masih nk amek budak bwh umur.
nak main pun masih underage uh! haha. gy mampus lah kau. seriously ah. buang maser aku uh!
musibat betol ah.
i want my watch, beg, EVRYTHING BACK. tlg ah. kalau hilang, kau bayar balek uh k. bdh!