thank you for the 09 months.

ini ape aku dapat. aku being treated like shit.

you really should learn more about love.

i sacrificed alot. and this is what i get back in return.

im just a normal person.

i have no looks, nothing. my attitude sucks too.

maybe i just dont deserve you. you desrve better girls that can understand you, trust you and all.

not me, im just a piece of shit. it's okay, after this i'l just live on my own.

i'l be okay. i'l be strong. i wont trust boys anymore.

da cukup aku sakit hati. da cukup.

thanks.

kenapa mesti aku yang deserve ni sume.

kimak padehal aku setia gila babi aku kene treated this way eh.

ape sia. tak fair langsung ah. da cukup ah aku sakit hati. cukup ah

tell me ah SHOULD I STAY IF A GUY IS TREATING ME LIKE FUCK!

TELL ME AH WHAT SHOULD I DO!

JUST BE PATIENCE? SABAR SAMPAI MATI KE APE.

KIMAK, YOURE REALLY MAKING ME LIKE AS IF I HAVE NO FEELINGS AT ALL.

TAKPELA. STRESS STRESS PUN BAGUS KAN TAK LAMA LAGI AKU MATI.

ITS OK LA. I DONT GIVE A SHIT AH. TAK DA GUNANYE LA SIA AKU BERUBAH.

PALA BUTO, SUME AKU AKU AKU. AKU YANG KENE TANGONG SEMUA.

PART AKU SUME SALAH PART KAU SUME NAK KENE BETOL.

PEGI MAMPUS

sume aku buat sume tk betol.

buto la. mati pun cantik ah.

i want to die

oh god, please gimme strength. im not strong to handle all these all by my own.

why must you be treating me this way? if you dont want me anymore.

just tell me okay. dont find fault with me.

aku pun ader perasaan la sia. sume part aku salah, part dia betul.

ape sia ni? im sick and you should be treating me nicely. but now, it's worst.

nvm la, i know la who i am k. siape sia nak aku. if you wna leave me, just tell k.

no need to find fault and treat me like fuck! i have feelings ok.

mcm sial ah.

nnt satu hari baru tahu menyesal.

sabar shahidah, selagi bole sabar, sabar.

im just fucking stress. bagus la buat aku stress lagi.

best ah sia pompan mcm aku ni dapat treated this way!!!!!!!!

ape gunanye berubah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i love you sayang.

now, i really need to stay strong.

really shocked after what had happened.

just need baby with me.

thank you for showing me that you care and i will always stay strong.

and to my dad, thank you for giving me your support.

i love you.

im just not in the mood right now i dont know why. i dont feel right.

fuck this feeling!

lips da macam sama. (;

just came back from meeting baby after 5 days tak jumpa!?! *down mood.

hais. im really going to miss you cos one month youre going in. )):

alaaaa. rinduuuu.

haireel sayang, youre the best among the rest.

i know that somtimes i get angry and we quarrel, i always say that,

'jantan sundal, tak guna all' NO okay. i dont mean it.

it's just that im angry and im letting it out. but seriously i dont mean it.

you really change me alot. you change me into a good person.

to stick to one, to be faithful, seriously this is the greatest gift from above.

25-29sept.

the four days with you was awesome sayang. tapi ada cockup jugak ah. -.-

love you sayang. miss you ):

behind all these, i have to admit that we always fight.

yes, always. and i always asked for a break up without thinking, it's just my ego.

#fuck.

but he didnt accept it. untill one day, when i asked for it, then he really accept it.

then i was like oh my god. for real? but then i realised that, org sabar, sabar pun mesti ada limit kan. yeah, blame myself for that. but now, im trying my best to chill uhh. eventhough we always fight, i still love you okay. my feelings for you tak pernah berubah. hmmp, and oh sometimes, you dont know how much i love you. i mean, you still havent see. belum nampak lagi. nvm, i'l just be patient. hais. hope we'l last. i really need you in my life. no matter how hard the situation is, i promise myself that i wont leave you. i love you.

i dont want to lose you. i just cant! youre the best among the best. i swear.

26 june.