Singapore Vs Vietnam.

stupid sia the vietnam players.
ergh! suker nah carik pasal.
ni tempat singapore lah pantat.
asal aku tengok bola je, aku teringat si sotty tu!
during the match.
my father something sia!
me: vietnam jahat sey!
ayah: takder, vietnam da badi ni.
hahahahaaa. badi siol!
something sia ayah.
then i called jana.
shahidah: eh, kau tengok bola? handsome eh alamshah.
(standard ah shahidah suker tengok lelaki hot hot pe) *wink*
jana: eh apesal seh sumer tengok bola? aku tak reti sia.
jana: si alamshah muke kelepek je.
shahidah: diam bodo kau, kau punye agu and precious tu!
SO PRECIOUS! hahahaaa.
jan, agu number 11 sia. how dare your boyfriend wearing my fav number?
tmrw going to meet wahyuni & kama.
jana maybe ah dektu! baby, jumper aku besok!
azlina tuesday aku jumper dier! <33333 READ MY LABEL.
alamshah, alam & shahidah. sachok pe? hahaaaa. "so cute!"
sheesh! okay da da, nanti ader orang marah! *peace*
eh, khairul amri, indra shahdan sumer cute cute.
brrr, CAIR AKU. *wink wink*
HOT SIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~
mampos nnt dier marah aku.):

arnd 12+ just now, gave elfi his shades back.
ni lah budak budak zaman skrg, THANK YOU PON TAKDE.
okay, i wanna go siap! going to visit my aunty at bedok.
tmrw going to school with kama.
kama, i miss you lahhh cb! ):
and maybe meeting wahyuni there.
baby j a w s, i wanna meet you! (:

after one week missing, now im back home.
i wouldnt be back home if mama wont say sorry
and asked me to go home. iloveyou, mama. (:
on the 16, hari sasuey giler.
pantat betol! hais. quarrel with mom and went out of house.
thank you baby j a w s.
thank you kama.
thank you syakir.
thank you nuwyrah.
did i forget anyone?
aku da macam takder arah tujuan siol.):
2days gone, and im back staying with my aunty.
learned new things there. i pray okay!
eh, i am a strong girl okay now.
im not weak anymore, er weak maybe ah sometimes.
sekarang, aku bobal ader care tau. da tak macam dulu.
im changing, slowly. maybe ah, kalau takder orang kacau aku.
im tired! ):

WAITING FOR THAT BLOODY AZLINA TO CALL ME~
going to her brother's pit if she call me ah!
LINCAH LAH KANINNABU! (:

AKU HAPPY SEKALI!
YOU DONT NEED TO CHANGE THE WAY I AM NOW.
I KNOW WHAT I AM DOING.
I LOVE TO SMILE NOWADAYS.
I LOVE TO LAUGH NOWADAYS.
weird. im so happy.
i dont know what to say.

TODAY WAS GREAT!
go see lah janny jans profile.
confirm dier post!
sorry, i dont have time for all those boys who wanna have
a relationship, who wants my attention. shyt sia~
you suck! cumer yang irritatting ones ah.
i just want to concentrate on
my beloved jaws, friends and maybe my wannabe-bf? (haha)
who sia? (enter here)
jaws, next week go buy that dress okay! (:
NO BOYRFRIEND?
I DONT CARE LAH.
if im about to have a boyfriend,
im just scared that he will be like my past boyfriends.
sedeh sia aku kene basterd.
kene pakai. hah! KARMA SIOL.
FUCK! GOD DAMN IT~
i will just go with the flow, baby!
you can have whatever you like.
im tired, baby.

GO AWAY.

EH ELFI, ON THE 18 EH?
APE NAK JADI, JADI AH.
SIAL JE KAU. PANAS ON KIPAS LAH CIBAI!
TAKMO KACAU AKU LAHHHHHH!
FUCK SIA.
the only way to keep away from the boys
is that, i have to find a boyfriend.
and i bet all the motherfucking boys wont disturb me anymore.
shyt sia all.
fuck them all.
yay, tmrw going to party~

syakir asked me to listen to this song.
baby dont leave.
he told me "this song i dedicate for you."
" i menyesal sia, i sayang u sia, dengar lyrics die."
i didnt say a thing.
nice song btw.
and nashriq.
pukimak! kau salah org sial nak carik pasal dgan aku.
cb. fuck sia! TAKMO KACAU AKU LAGI LAH KORG!
aku taknak pening kepale lah pasal korang.
shyt!
kama, kiter happy always eh! (:
takde stress pon.
it's not easy to find your true soulmate huh..

kama sang for me sumer lagu dkat mp3 die.
nice voice btw. *melts*
around 11+ syakir called.
syakir: hello. u da taknak bobal dgan i?
i didnt even say hello back.
silence*
syakir: you, good morning baby! *with the cute voice*
i kept quiet.
syakir: u, sumpah u i sorry. i tak akan buat lagi.
shahidah: ala, buei buei. werl werl. BYE! *PUT DOWN THE PHONE*
before that, i heard syakir saying, "i miss you and i loveeee..
oh, too bad! i put down the phone.
im sorry ah.
this is just not the time.

EH NASHRIQ!
KAU APESAL SIA!
MSG AKU CARIK PASAL.
SIAL JE, KAU PIKE AKU ADER MASE?
LEK SUA, YOU THINK BY DOING THIS,
YOU CAN HAVE MY ATTENTION.
ps: i dont have time lah sial.
cb sia. apesal dgan sumer jantan sial ni sume?
macam fuck sia. damn it! aku takder maser lah
nak layan korg. sial lah! go away.
syakir called and say, "hello, u i saket, i demam panas, kalau tak u slalu tekapkan i."
me: "eh? gy mampos ah. bye."
(OO SACHOK!)
im sorry syakir.
i didnt mean to be harsh but i have to uh.
but, think uh what you have done to me. *sigh*
and, i forgot.
syakir: i tahu u da tak percaye i lagi, but do you still love me? *with his serious voice*
hais. bye!

syakir, i dont think that im gonna reply your msgs, answer all you calls now.

you msged me and say sorry,

"Im sorry for what i had done, i was wrong and foolish,

infact, i even felt embarassed. just take up my sorrow

apology, i cant take this much burden presurring me.

youre the reason why im still strong, youre the reason

why im alive just to give you love, care. i am sorry.

i could not stop laughing when we make jokes together

and laughing together. i still remember your first fall in my room,

it was hilarious. i didnt even help but i continue to laugh.

i remember our first kiss it was greatest gift from a girl like you,

hais. once again, im sorry."

(senang senang ke cakap sorry? hah!)

aku malas ah. takecare~

AND EXCUSE ME, ELFI!
DID I EVEN SAY THAT I WANNA GO ZOUK OUT!
what the hell?
JATOHHHHHHHHHHH BOY~
sial je, kau tak tau, diam diam sua ar.
haha. paisey siol bo-boy! bodoh nak mampos~
kalau kau da paisey tu, diam aje ah.
kau maner campor dgan aku lagi?
kau pon taktau saturday aku nak pegi mane pe.
sial je~
AND KALAU KAU NAK TAU, AZLINA ADER CHALET SIOL!
AND FINAH AJAK AKU PEGI DANCE CREW DIE
THEN KLUA DENGAN DIE.
KAU PIKE PROUD UH KAU TAU UH SATURDAY ADER ZOUKOUT SUME?
SIAL JE, AKU TAK CKP PON PASAL ZOUKOUT! fuckken hell~
ape cite sia sumer orang nak carik pasal hari ni. fuck!

I WANNA RELEASE MY STRESS THIS SATURDAY!

yeah baby. we'll dance,

we'll shake, we'll get high.

I can lie to others but not myself.

boys are basterds.
i dont need you lahh syakir.
i dont need you to breathe.
it's enough already.
thanks siol.
boys are basterds.
boys are toys.
boys will always be boys.
whatever sia. i dont care anymore,
what for i cry?
nah, im just scared that i will get boys like muhdnursyakir.
takot siol. please ah. i had enough!
kalau kau cakap sorry pon buat ape?
aku pon da tak heran lah ey.
BINAWEI.
tapi kan, i still got kama pe?
betol tak g-bon?
dier selalu ader untok aku.
bukan macam lelaki sial yang laen tu.
fuck sia!
thanks jana, azlina, yan, kama for hearing me out. iloveyouall!
it's the end. it's enough. we'll see kay cb!

I HAD ENOUGH OF YOU JERK!

this song like makes me melt sia.
lagu old school tau, very nice lah(:
sedap ah, macam true gitu.
dream about you- steive b.

dressing up~
going out later with kama and his small sister. (anisa siol)
nurin wants to meet anisa badly!
and im sorry nashriq. i cannot accompany you~
like i say, im not like the OLD SHAHIDAH.
aku tak senang ah, aku still ader perasaan untok fara.
ape dier fike nanti? aku bukan pompan takde hati,
yang slalu klua dengan laen laen jantan. hah!
whatever lah sia. fuck lah!
later we going to, i dunno where lahh.
and jana, apape msg aku okay!
you want to meet kn? okay bye bby sotty.

shucks man!
what's wrong with me sey!
aku luper ezzad punyer bdae, aku luper dee boonie punyer birthday.
wth sia! fuck myself lah. sial lah!
im sorry dee if i never wish you yesterday, on your birthday.
and, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DEEANA MY BOONIE BOON.
hehs. im so so sorry lahh. adoi. i feel bad sia. i dont have my pics with you.
tapi i think this is the last photo we all take together. the sasada. ):

i just finised watching football.
singapore vs indonesia.
2-0. ouh, congrats!
apesal sumer cakap bola is arnd 10+ sia?
padehal 8+ LIVE sia, at rcti.
kental. ni lah orang orang zaman batu. :P
wooo, it's true that singapore football player sumer hothot~
funny things happen sia while watch football.
here it is,
when singapore scored the 1st goal,
father: baek ah, baikaki score.
it was suppose to be baihaki.
*laughhhhs*
a few minutes later,
father: dorang simpan tu shah alam dulu tau, sebab dier dangerous player.
it was suppose to be alam shah! shah alam masjid siol.
father, you something sia! (that is what jan said)
then a few minutes before the match ends, jana called.
jana: eh apesal sumer tengok bola sia.
me: haha. aku pon tengah tgk ni!
me: hothot eh dorang.
jana: a'ah, lagi lagi si SHAH ALAM!
hahahahaha. si gundu ni pon sekaki dengan bapak aku!
korang something sia.
hahaha. and then, player name precious.
me: jana, apape besok aku call kau okay?
me: aku nak tgk bola,(:
SOMETHINGGGG SIAAAAA~

takecare st): i miss you. iloveyou.
i love you jaws. (:
i love you friends.
i love you bby!

FOURTEEN HARI KITER, SO MUST GO OUT!

today went netball.
aku got high fever siol.
thanks had, alifah, azlina, all my sweet netballers ah. (:
then, check class lagi. ruper rupernyer banyak sia melayu.
confirm kecoh pe. fajrina, nashruddin, isma alif(budak baru)
okay, tengok aje lah next year. :D
and, thanks to anisa, lukman and kama for making this bloody fever gone~
kakak kama lawa la. hais, jealous sia! pakai tudong somemore,
very sweet! nnt confirm si gbon tu ckp, "tgk lah sape adek die"
hahaha! mapek jer ni ikan pari cheesedale! :D
that jana rindu si sushi sey.
cey cey cey, woo. so sweet lahh korang.
last long, bby sotty(:

ps: i love my life now. nomore stress!

with my loved ones beside me,

i swear i will be happy.

till eternity.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MUHD KHAIRUL EZZAD.
i forgot sia. -.-
im sorry for all my wrong doings to you.
hahs. and, may all your wishes come true.
all the best in your life, biol!
takecare.

i miss getting kissed on the forehead.
i miss those flying kisses.
i miss those huggings.
i miss those laughings.
i miss those suprises.
i miss those birthday presents.
i miss those sweet messages.
i miss those phonecalls.
i miss taking pictures.
i miss those roses.
i miss those piyo-piyo rides.
i miss it when you tell me that,

"i love you more than anything in this world."

"and always remember that i will always be there for you,

no matter what."

"i want you as my girl."

"takmo maen blakang i tau b, i sayang u. i rindu u."

"i nak kawin dengan u lahhh."

~DAMN IT!

now at my makcik's house.
wahyuni at marine parade.
aku taktau sia aku balek what time!
wahyuni, besok pagi pagi kiter jumper kau okay?
(aku dengan azlina.)
and please ah boys,
aku serik.
aku serik bercinte.
aku taknak dapat lelaki same macam yang lain tu!
pakai aku, maen maenkan aku, basterd aku, prangai sumer.
wahsey! please ah.
i have not time for all this!

"Im sorry, please forgive me. please accept my apology."
"Even though how much you hate me and when we scream and shout,
i would just remember only the sweet memories and this crush
on you is not going to fade away".

(nashriq sent me.)

nashriq, im sorry if i didnt reply the msgs.
i just dont want things to get worst.

sekarang baru korang carik aku balek?

korang fike korang nak aku,

korang pakai aku. taknak aku,

buang aku. macam sampah!

senang senang je~
fuck sia, let me repeat.
im not the old shahidah.

kama, he understands me.

the rest sumer perangai. fuck lah!

thank you kama. :DDDDD
just let things roll okay?
tonight meeting wahyuni before she go kl tmrw~
jana, i hope you can meet us tonight. ):

"you go keje baek-baek okay?
takmo tekan-tekan tau(:
semakin hari, ku semakin rindu
tak dapat bayangkan diriku tanpamu."
okay, stop! bought red sandal from royal sporting house.
red tee and red sandal. sorry dee(boon) your colour sia.
tapi kan that time, red attracts my eye.
i tell you what, you people should go shopping now!
sale maha sale siol.
from $70 to $40-$30?
from $40 to $20?
go go go!

and to that guy.
jangan part hari 07 used to be our monthsary aje ah
nak jumper. nak pakai aku lagi? adoi. da serik siol.
aku bukan pompan murah. aku bukan macam dulu lagi.
yang korang pike korang senang-senang sey nak pakai aku.
hais! kau boley jumper pompan laen pe, apesal kau nak jumper aku?
pegi uh, celebrate today dengan pompan laen. minom sume! hah.
GO!
ader lelaki laen yang jauh lebeh baek daripade kau ah joy.
aku lagi rela jumper dorg, buat ape nak jumper kau?
FIKE AH! KAU SUKER TAK AKU MAEN MAEN KAN KAU?
TAK JUJOR DGAN KAU?
fuck you. takecaresiol~

yesterday, went shopping with sister and nurin.
town siol. ader christmas sale siol!
bought this tee-shirt. and ader satu ni macam dress ah.
sister blanje, i love you sister! (:
AND JANA,
im sorry~
tapi, hari ni kau paitau):
let's go arab street siol!
today, following sister to go shop again.
aww, shop till you drop!

JAWS.

"PENTINGKAN MEMBER, BUTO TINGGALKAN."

"SATU KENE JENTIK, SUMER RASE SAKET."

later going orchard. wohoooo~
to jana and wahyuni: chill lah bby. be patient and good things will happen to you.
and, jana yes. kiter da use to it da. suey siol today! fuck lahh.
im going to shop till i drop today.
wait! i miss these people.
arina.
aous.
sharmeele.
sakina.
liyana.
nuraini.
natahsha.
wahyuni.
all the mother tounge people lah. siol lah!
da tak same class sia next year.
da sec 4, dont play alright.
andddd, my classmate.
NURAINI AND NATAHSHA! i miss you all sia.
secret secret ingat? siol lahhhhhhh!
our(azlina and me)class next year is never gonna be the same,
without aini, natahsha. haisssssssssssssssss!

i bought that red wallet already siol.

i miss going to his house):

and, mulot aku takmo s a s u e y sudah!

adoi, wahyuni. im just joking around sey.

8 december? ohgod. takmo siol! choooyyyy~

and i really have fucking hell fun with beng and gori.

singapore sport school. wooo~

big siol. fun siol. and, that ausie boy.

makes me go wa wa wee waa. (sorry jana, if i use fansyuri's phrase):

look at the pictures, baby!

i know my current song is pathetic.
lagu lame siol.
tapi, there's alot of memories.
my fav song jugak.
azlina, you know kann?
haha. cabot!
nurin is calling me, "eh bibik, favourite show bibik, DORA THE EXPLORER!"
"do you love me?" oh, yes i do. hahah! you know, i know. (:
1300hrs- going out. meet him.
then off to meet wahyuni, going to singapore sports school.
if not, kiter jalan-jalan sua eh beng! kan you only have 3more days!
janny jan tsukiko san, thanks for your concern yesterday.
sanggop sey msg aku(:
ily jaws~

oh god.
one day, im going to be alone.
i regret all the past mistakes that i've done.
i regret shouting at my mom and all!
i know that my past mistakes all were not be forgiven.
shyt sia! rabak pe. im just scared! im just scared.
fuckken hell. scared sia! sometimes,
im just sick and tired of life when the boys thought that
im their property. siol lah! *slap forehead*
how many times must i say this to them sia?
"kau bukan sesape aku"
"kau pegi lah carik pompan laen"
"tak gune kau tunggu aku"
my heart is only for one.
mane boley kasi 3 or 4 sia?
tolong ah korang, faham aku ah.
aku bukan pompan yang korang boley buat pakai ah.
aku ader hati, ader perasaan.
i only need him.

walaoweyyyy.
hari ni sumer sway pe.
sumer AKU punyer salah.
AKU, AKU, AKU!
sumer aku yang tangong.
pegi lah side kawan kau.
sumer aku yng degil pe.
aku yang tak pernah nak dengar cakap kau pe.
apape lahh sia. like you say, "FUCK THIS WORLD LAH."
naseb baek lah masey ader orang sayang aku?
azlina, wahyuni, jana. i miss you. ):
and aqilah, woohhooo. yeah, true! NEXT YEAR CLASSSS GEREKKKKK PEEEEE!
she called me chita chtty chtty bang bangs~
so i call her,
A KILL KILL AHH BANG BANG~
like, a kill? a kill ahh, bang bang! *shoot, kill* (:

I WANT THAT PURPLE/PINK/BLACK BAG FROM 77TH STREET OKAY? $69.00
I WANT THAT RED WALLET FROM THE WALLET SHOP OKAY? $29.00
psst, and joget jumpstyle pon cool pe.
imagine ah, jumping around.
tecktonik lagi cool lah.
hah. ehhh, bye!
aku rindu sia die):

im scared to be in love, again!
im scared to be played, again!
im scared to be kissed.
im scared to be hugged.
im scared to be touched.
but all i need is you, baby.

FIRST december siol hari ni.
hah, aku da agak da lah elfi.
apape lahh siol. da tak heran.
check my class just now.
NEXTYEAR, 3N4 siol!
with,
azlinaET.
aqilahMB.
aousKONTOL.
kamaEAST-STAR.
suffiyanPAYO.
ipinGILER.
6-7malays. aous tak confirm pe.
i guess. 3 pompan, 3 jantan.
gerek lahhh kannnnnnnnnn! woooo. jambu!
and mother tounge kiter same dengan 3N2 lah kn diana boon?
like you said "we will turn the school upside down baybeh!"
wow, cool!
yang da naek sec four tu, takmo lupe kiter sudah.
i had hell fun with baby jaws just now.
at last, complete! haha.
fuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
ps: st, chill okay. i know how you feel. im here b(:
camwhore siol kiter. standard(:

met wahyuni, hugged her like thousand years tak jumper siol.
then jana came, hugged jana till we lie on the bed.
wahseyy, i love you all(:
im tired lah. damn tired sial.
ader orang paitau lahhh siol!
kater nak jumpe, abey cakap besok.
aku rindu kama. tak salah kan?! cb.
aku rindu khairul ezzad jugak!
brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. kaybye!
ps: sucker-dim chris is my song okay.
cb!

CHITA TECKTONIK,

ELFI SEBOK BODOHHHHHHHHHHHHH! cibai kia!

went to cousin's open house.
siol lah. sumer colour hotpink and black siol.
jambu pe! hehs. okay, whatever lah.
orang tu kater, dier nak belikan aku "5 rumah" hahah!
macam paham. and kama & azlina baby, thanks for being there listening to
whatever happens to me nowadays uh. seriously, THANKYOU G-BON AND BELO!
(HAHA! SACHOK!)
eh kama, smlm loyang point! hahahahahahaaaaa. kaninna! padan muke kene rabak!
orang pike kiter gado siol(:
eh people, shahrul joget tecktonik lawa siol. uh, ni shahidah joget pulak! lagi jambu!
meeting my baby jaws soon. azlina, jana, wahyuni. i miss you b):
abey, just now go kedai mama, that mama say "you look like rihana." then he started laughing.
mampossss! uh ni azlina pey kawan lah ni! azlina kater rihana, nuwyrah kater dora!
bagos! ergh. im tired ah. looking forward for tommorow baby!
wah! jana fingers going light pink, mine going red! wooo. kiter sexy per jana!
dearest j-a-w-s apape picet aku okay? i will always be here for you all. <333

this is today's post.
listen to my blog song! it's fucking nice.
swear sia. techtonik jugakkkkkkkkk~
i've cut my fringe yesterday. bangs~
haha. da betol betol macam dora the explorer lah NUWYRAH!
(kau suke kan) (((:
sorry jana and wahyuni i cannot pick you guys up today. ):
i miss you all fucking much!
im very tired and im sick ah.
ARGHHHHHHH!
azlina, you know about yesterday kan? yang dekat bawah blk?
"biar rahsie pecah diperot, takmo pecah dimulot siol!
i just cant wait to turn 16 years old. 16 freedom, sixteen cann ..

"hidop skali, sume mau jamah pe."
"dekat luar matae, dekat dalam single!"

you know, im addicted to techtonik.
serious uh. and, i seriously hate this family ah.
how the fucking hell you want me to change, if you all treat me like an animal sia?
stressssssssssss siol! okay, apape. i got to go now.

i will be posting blog soon okay? ):
TECHTONIK IS SO COOL SIA.
TURN ON THE MUSIC
FEEL THE BEAT
SHAKE YOUR HANDS
MOVE YOUR LEGS
and you will get high.
psst, try to shake okay.
seriously, fun. release sumer stress dekat kepale otak!

EHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
SIALAH NI SUME JANTAN.
ERGHHHHHHH!
eh jantans, korang maseh ade untok aku pe?
sume jantan lancaowey lah. sweet talk ni sume.
eh tak salah per aku contact dengan orang ke nak klua.
sialah! dorang sume ader untok aku.
bukan macam korg. sume kater-kater aje!
ORANG KATE, BOBAL TAK GUNE KALAU TEMBAK TAK KENE.
jantan, jantan. same lahh korang!
jantan? haha. sanggop mati untok pompan lah, sanggop ini lah sanggop itu lah!
sialahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
maybe tu pompan suke per sumer jadi macam gini. hah, good for you siol.
CHAOCIBAI! jalan tengok kiri kanan depan blakang siol.
ni serious uh, aku da takde maser sia untok ni sume.
yang aku tau, ade pegi ade balek ah.
"if i would cry, it wouldnt change the colours of the sky."
betol siol ni. abey aku buat ape nak buang maser nanges ni sume?
shahidah, move on siol!

Wish That I Could Move On
Can't Let Go, It's Too Strong
Just Like That And Then You're Gone
Is This How You Wanted It To Be
Everything You Had To Say
Sent The Tears Right Down My Face
Now I'm Trying To Escape
The Misery
Why Don't You Love Me
The Way I Loved You
It Feels So Crazy
Cause I Dunno What I Did To You
If You're Gonna Hurt Me
Then Do It Quickly
Cause I'm Tired Of Cryin
If You Don't Wanna Stick AroundThen, Baby, Forget About Me!

MY PASSWORD NUMBER FOR MY HANDPHONE.
THREE EIGHT SIX EIGHT NINE THREE THREE.
what the fuck? can i forget about all this? he is just using me.

"If you love somebody, let them go,
for if they return, they were always yours.
And if they don't, they never were."

Eh aku ni macam berdosa gitu eh kalau aku rindu orang.
siol lah, kalau aku rindu korang pon ape guneyer siol?
korg da basterd aku pe, erghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
im sick and tired of this games.
ive gotta be strong and leave you behind.
i loved you once, and youre the last one.
I AM GOING TO MOVE ON!

fuck sia, i can only use 2hours of this stupid computer. okay go!
yesterday went all the way to kent ridge with my baby azlina.
then went downtown with azlina&kama. dorang lagi gerek sia dari korang.
singing this song all the way. untok tu jantan ah!
DIMANA KAH YOU BERADA,
I DKAT SINI MACAM ORANG GILA.
BETAHUN SUDAH BERLALU,
YOU KATE JE YOU NAK TUNGGU,
MANE PEGI SUME I LOVE YOU,
MANE PEGI JANJI JANJI DULU.
(we change this part)
YOU NAK PUKI I DA BAGI.
YOU NAK DOGGY I DA KASI.
YOU YOU YOU YOU, I BENCI YOU.
I JADI SUNDAL, SAME MACAM YOU!

KAU KATER KAU BUKAN MACAM JANTAN LAEN?
KANINNABU SASUEY NABEY LANCAOWEY.
to that bloody fucking boy.
i had enough of you!
just remember this, that slap and that ring ive thrown to you,
wasnt enough for me. actually, ader lagi banyak uh. tapi,
im just sick and tired of you. pembastard! penipu! sweet talker mother fucker. ape?
kau takot takder kawan per next year? yelah, aku kan da stayback.
aku nak ckp uh, kalau kau taknak musoh dgan die, musoh uh dgan aku kay.
kau yang buat aku nak musoh dgan kau lah sia. fike ah! fuck sia.
"aku bukan pompan murah,
yang kau boley buat pakai atau buat main siol."
aku ader hati, aku ader perasaan siol.
ni care minah rep ah.
TAKECARE SIOL!

MUHD KAMARUDDIN BIN KHIRMAN.

"i miss you fucking much lah.

*sigh*

i dont know why lah.

I've not been posting blog lately.
im sorry, im busy.
from me and wahyuni:
kama, alep, radhi, eddy, bana, rasyhid, and the two mat motors, thanks tau. (:
i mean, thank you sebab korg turon that day. atleast you guys standby. <3
kama, i miss you boy. ):

can i say something to suri? that bloody fucking girl.

"ader pegi, ade balek tau.
kiter mesti return punye!"

aku tak bobal macam paham, macam care kau bobal tau girl-girl.

eh, kau bawak turon ribot pe kan tu hari? abey mane kau gone biler crite da tutop? kau balek?takot? haha. kau yang carik penyakit kan? nanti pandai-pandai kau carik obat okay suri? nanti kau tengok okay pompan. aku taknak kau tengok jer, aku nak kau rase kay. hah!

and, i am not trying to be fanatic here. im so pissed off with that girl. ergh!

AKU STRESS LAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
fuck me, fuck you, fuck them, fuck everyone!
my heartpain. pain! im tired of crying lah.
fuck. im so weak!

yesterday was AWESOME. but not that awesome without durrah nurul jannah.
JAWS was not complete. :/
went to e-hub, downtown & pasir ris park.
had a hell fun with that kambeng & berok.
espacially in the toilet. -.-
meet alep & syakir. alep wallet hilang.
alep, chill okay?
today? imma good girl lahh.
clean up my messy room.
i wanna start to read eng books uh.
i dont know why i am so hardworking today! (:

I've been thinking about how my future will turn out to be.
For the time being, i dont want to stress up myself with all this fucking shit problems.
I want to move on, without a boyfriend. *thinking*
now, i am going to stand up and make things change in my life.
(change for the better.)
today, meeting J A W S arnd 3.30. going to call azlina, that lazyass! going to e-hub(:
nashriq, im not ready to meet you. im sorry.

around 21.59, nash called.
nash: hello, besok nak jumper tak?
shahidah: err, asal eh? nanti ader aje o-r-a-n-n-g yang..
nash: nak taknak?
shahidah: err.
nash: nak taknak? for the lasttime me & u jumper.
nash: apape besok msg my hp.
shahidah: k, bye.
i dont know what is going to happen with my lovelife.
i have to bloody live with it and move on, right? stress!
yes, i am not fucking ready for a serious relationship.
aku taknak kehilangan orang yang aku sayang, LAGI.
i am trying to be strong, but my strength is washing away.
all ive got now is, my darling bestfriends & girlfriends. <333333

I am not those playtoys that you can play with, boy.
I just cant stand it anymore.
Wtf? I wont disturb that fara and nashriq lahh okay?
aku tahu aku pompan sundal, tapi aku tak akan menyundal sampai rosakkan relationship orangg lahh okay? aku pompan yang bobal bergune & tembak mesti kene.
I AM THE GIRL OF WORDS. NOW, I MEAN EVERYTHING I SAY.
and now, im going to move on, independantly.
i wont love boys anymore.
i wont want boys anymore.
i wont adore boys anymore.
i wont trust boys, anymore!
"will a boy come into my life and prove it to me that he is the one?" we'll see.
i repeat, i am not a toy that you can play with it.
i will just let things roll.

I am not ready for love.
I am not ready to fall in love.
I am not ready. for everything!
He said to me, "just let things roll."
I dont want to give high hopes. sial lah!
I DONT TRUST BOYS ANYMORE, swear!

to arina: chill okay bestfriend? you must move on. and it's okay to cry!
seeeeee, kiterorg(me&kambeng) sanggop tau turon!
bestfriends comes first.
deeana, i miss the hug(:

happy one year anniversary. my used to be god-brother. my used to be "sweet little bumble bee". cookie monster? brrr. three garden? open plaza? three-three-three? biler cabot skola?
wow. time flies very fast. and, i hope youre happy with your life now. and my life is going to turn out _____. takecare of her.
remember this, I GIVE IN. KAY? HELLO? I GIVE IN.
when i say i'm okay.
i can lie to you, but not my heart.

yours truly,
your cookie monster(boncit).

*thinking*
i think i should just give in,
i know that he will never-ever be happy with me.
all the messages i sent them yesterday.

fara,
"i cant make him happy like you do.
i cant make him change like you do.
i think he will be superhappy if he were back in your arms once again.
biar aku merane, asalkan korang bahagie."
(fara kept denying.)(babe, i want you both to be happy. k?)

nashriq,
you take good care of her tau. jage dier mcm maner nashriq jage shahidah.
takmo saketkan hati dier, takmo sayang orang laen. love her with all your heart.
takecare nash, thanks for all the memories. haissssss. dont betray her.

ay ay! guess what? this is my very first time giving in to people.
see, shahidah da berubah. aku da tak ego lahh macam dulu.
so? be happy with it okay. i just want to see you both happy.
oh, about myself? i dont mind okay. *smile*

this song is for him. (seriously, suits him.)
"bertahun sudah berlalu,
u kate jer u nak tunggu!
maner pegi sumer "i love you"
maner pegi janji-janji dulu?
you you you you i sayang you." <333
tapi, I S A Y A N G K A W A N- K A W A N I L E B E H D A R I - U(:

met J A W- S. today.
hell fun lahh okay?! (untok keterangan lanjut, sila lungsuri ke lelaman- http://herownlittlefairytale.blogspot.com
awww, arina. i miss you alot. see! you cry. i also cry.
our true friendship will not die even though we're not that close.
i still treat you as my bestfriend. arina, dont think too much about guys ok?
yes, what you say is true. LOVE IS A BITCH. but not our friendship ok?
you miss all the sweeet moments? i miss them too. 11years, bf. 11years!
kindergaten times: you love to play with my hair kann?
primary times: i always send you to school riding a bike knnnn! (without complaining tau)
secondary times: baboon and chimpanzee?
INGATTT TAKK?
tommorrow i will hugg youuu lahhh okay, bestfriend!
nights, sweetest dreams. (i'll always be here for you)

awww, i miss my bestfriend lahh okay? (erin, aku rindu kau jugak, tapi lagik byk! mwah)
on the fifteen tau sayang. okay best! arina, chill okay? harap-harap melissa salah org ke?
chill. *hugs!*
(finding old photos) brrr.

no boyfriend? no problem.
have boyfriend? big problem.
erghhhhhhhhhhhhh.
boyfriend? no thanks. (for the moment) haiss.

NORAZLINAA, HAPPY ONE YEARR BESTFRIEND ANNIVERSARY! I LOVE YOU TO THEE FUCKING FUCKER CORE.
eppy msg-ed. (happy 1year 08monthsary) haissssss. sigh*
went downtownnnn with my besties wasssss fucckkkiiinggggg fuckkkkerrrr fuckerous funnnnn lahh! hahaha. yess, jana. i aggree with you. 3=30000000 peeeeeeoooplleeee. haha! *excited sia aku* JANA! ANTAR GAMBAR! wahyuni st bestie got a name already! bengg ahh benggg! kambengg. hahhaaa. err, took neoprint. arnd 7+ wahyuni & jana went home first. kama sent me to afgan busstop. and he waited for bus 3 on the opp/ site. (terserempak ayie & my exbf.) COINCIDENCE SIA! then lepak with, ayie, nuwyrah, nash. pantat mcm ulat sia. lepak tukar-tukar block. eh Nuwyrah, da lame lahh ehh kiter tak lepak ker ataupon ketwer-ketwer like hell just now~ hahahaa. erghhhh! will be uploading photos which that boncit is going to send! arnd 10+ (LASTWARNINGGG CALL SIOL!) then i went home with nash's mp3. pinjam okay monyet! (: i wanna be friend with everyone/anyone. i want to have no more enemies. aku taknakk stress-stress lagi sey. *sigh. no more boyfriends. (finding one maybe) i love everyone! hah! im tired already. *yawwwnnnnnn! goonight people. "b, ilove you! (:"

today. johore trip. zerosix-eleven! whoa. nuwaira & me. lastyear? all memories.
aww, nuwaira. whatever it is, dont stress up too much with life okay SOZTONGSS! (8
er, ate ljs after that trip, laugh laugh laugh. gerek pe! nuraini, youre so noisy ass! azlina bakar.
and, JANA- MBSDB! (i dont want to elaborate it because *aku pandang kau siol*)
babes, thanks for making my day today. and i didnt get a chance to hug nuwaira today, our day! wth. there's always a next time kn? Kama, thanks for sending me home. I appreciate it, alot! It's late at night. Takecare g-bon, apape msg. Err, nashriq. Im sorry if i paitau-ed you for several times already! im verrrryyy veryyyyyy sorrryyyyy. macam-macam sey!
ps/thank you gfs and bfs for making me laugh like hell today!

Happy Birthday To MUHDNURSYAKIR, HANAKHALDONABDAT, MUHDAIDIL, &JANA's small sister(:

so, gave syakir a big-big-big card. celebrated at his house. heh!
&i swear i cant imagine what's going to happen if me and jana(metta head!) were in under one roof. and so do J A W S. hahahaaaaaa. i tell you ah, that Jana has a disease called leukemia.
she will be talking to herself, always! standard uhh, metta! anddddddd, i cant wait to see her hair bald. Jan, ader pegy ader balek. you know what i mean? (:
wahyuni st, im still finding a name for you okay! wait*
I miss you, azlina and firdaous. (bestfriend)

ps: syakir sound me for a patch. *thinking b!

I will be repeating sec3 again next year.
haisss. I will change and i want to change!
I wanna concentrate on studies. If others can do, why cant i?
I must prove that a repeat student can do it. Insya'allah.
brrrrrr, aku rindunyer dengan techno! rindunyer lepak.
alep, yan, eppy, radhi, kama, eddy, syafiq, syakir, azlina. rindu pe!
last yearr, kalau tidak june/november/december, slalu lepak.
pasir ris park, swammpp, mall, bawah block, kewakkkkk!
AKU RINDUUUNYERRR!
ps/ yan, chill okay? aku ader dekat sini tau.

Own an red extension pulak. Hah! colour-colour.
My relationship with them is getting better.
Friendship too. Er, for today.
1november08, hope it will be a sui month for me.
another 03 more days going to be syakir's birthday? omg-.-'
haisss. aku naseb lahhh siol! my parents doesnt scold me about staying back.
they say, "next year, takmo maen-maen." I PROMISE I WONT!
Today- going out.
Tomorrow- kendarat.
Will be busssyyyyyy sia.
I wanna go siap. *wink*

I will never forgive myself, today.
Mama, im so sorry if i hurt you,
im sorry if i make you bleed,
i dont care when just now you shout, you beat me up, you throw and cut all my clothes.
my clothes are not as precious as you are, mama. i rather lose all my clothes rather than to lose you. im sorry if i pay your deeds & kindness back in this way. i didnt mean to. well, im still a kid.
i love you more than everything, mama!
I LOOVEEEE YOUUU, i sweeeaarrrrr. no matter what~
p/s: realise how much your mother meant to you. (for me, my mother meant a world to me, everything indeed. treasure your mother now, before it's too late. treasure her! haiss. &LASTLY, aku klua dari perot mak aku tau. nak kecoh buat ape?
gang, whatever i am now, how pretty, how ugly, how bitchy, how flirty, whatever it is I GOT IT FROM MY MAMA! (:

!AMP