Singapore Vs Vietnam.

stupid sia the vietnam players.
ergh! suker nah carik pasal.
ni tempat singapore lah pantat.
asal aku tengok bola je, aku teringat si sotty tu!
during the match.
my father something sia!
me: vietnam jahat sey!
ayah: takder, vietnam da badi ni.
hahahahaaa. badi siol!
something sia ayah.
then i called jana.
shahidah: eh, kau tengok bola? handsome eh alamshah.
(standard ah shahidah suker tengok lelaki hot hot pe) *wink*
jana: eh apesal seh sumer tengok bola? aku tak reti sia.
jana: si alamshah muke kelepek je.
shahidah: diam bodo kau, kau punye agu and precious tu!
SO PRECIOUS! hahahaaa.
jan, agu number 11 sia. how dare your boyfriend wearing my fav number?
tmrw going to meet wahyuni & kama.
jana maybe ah dektu! baby, jumper aku besok!
azlina tuesday aku jumper dier! <33333 READ MY LABEL.
alamshah, alam & shahidah. sachok pe? hahaaaa. "so cute!"
sheesh! okay da da, nanti ader orang marah! *peace*
eh, khairul amri, indra shahdan sumer cute cute.
brrr, CAIR AKU. *wink wink*
HOT SIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~
mampos nnt dier marah aku.):

arnd 12+ just now, gave elfi his shades back.
ni lah budak budak zaman skrg, THANK YOU PON TAKDE.
okay, i wanna go siap! going to visit my aunty at bedok.
tmrw going to school with kama.
kama, i miss you lahhh cb! ):
and maybe meeting wahyuni there.
baby j a w s, i wanna meet you! (:

after one week missing, now im back home.
i wouldnt be back home if mama wont say sorry
and asked me to go home. iloveyou, mama. (:
on the 16, hari sasuey giler.
pantat betol! hais. quarrel with mom and went out of house.
thank you baby j a w s.
thank you kama.
thank you syakir.
thank you nuwyrah.
did i forget anyone?
aku da macam takder arah tujuan siol.):
2days gone, and im back staying with my aunty.
learned new things there. i pray okay!
eh, i am a strong girl okay now.
im not weak anymore, er weak maybe ah sometimes.
sekarang, aku bobal ader care tau. da tak macam dulu.
im changing, slowly. maybe ah, kalau takder orang kacau aku.
im tired! ):

WAITING FOR THAT BLOODY AZLINA TO CALL ME~
going to her brother's pit if she call me ah!
LINCAH LAH KANINNABU! (:

AKU HAPPY SEKALI!
YOU DONT NEED TO CHANGE THE WAY I AM NOW.
I KNOW WHAT I AM DOING.
I LOVE TO SMILE NOWADAYS.
I LOVE TO LAUGH NOWADAYS.
weird. im so happy.
i dont know what to say.

TODAY WAS GREAT!
go see lah janny jans profile.
confirm dier post!
sorry, i dont have time for all those boys who wanna have
a relationship, who wants my attention. shyt sia~
you suck! cumer yang irritatting ones ah.
i just want to concentrate on
my beloved jaws, friends and maybe my wannabe-bf? (haha)
who sia? (enter here)
jaws, next week go buy that dress okay! (:
NO BOYRFRIEND?
I DONT CARE LAH.
if im about to have a boyfriend,
im just scared that he will be like my past boyfriends.
sedeh sia aku kene basterd.
kene pakai. hah! KARMA SIOL.
FUCK! GOD DAMN IT~
i will just go with the flow, baby!
you can have whatever you like.
im tired, baby.

GO AWAY.

EH ELFI, ON THE 18 EH?
APE NAK JADI, JADI AH.
SIAL JE KAU. PANAS ON KIPAS LAH CIBAI!
TAKMO KACAU AKU LAHHHHHH!
FUCK SIA.
the only way to keep away from the boys
is that, i have to find a boyfriend.
and i bet all the motherfucking boys wont disturb me anymore.
shyt sia all.
fuck them all.
yay, tmrw going to party~

syakir asked me to listen to this song.
baby dont leave.
he told me "this song i dedicate for you."
" i menyesal sia, i sayang u sia, dengar lyrics die."
i didnt say a thing.
nice song btw.
and nashriq.
pukimak! kau salah org sial nak carik pasal dgan aku.
cb. fuck sia! TAKMO KACAU AKU LAGI LAH KORG!
aku taknak pening kepale lah pasal korang.
shyt!
kama, kiter happy always eh! (:
takde stress pon.
it's not easy to find your true soulmate huh..

kama sang for me sumer lagu dkat mp3 die.
nice voice btw. *melts*
around 11+ syakir called.
syakir: hello. u da taknak bobal dgan i?
i didnt even say hello back.
silence*
syakir: you, good morning baby! *with the cute voice*
i kept quiet.
syakir: u, sumpah u i sorry. i tak akan buat lagi.
shahidah: ala, buei buei. werl werl. BYE! *PUT DOWN THE PHONE*
before that, i heard syakir saying, "i miss you and i loveeee..
oh, too bad! i put down the phone.
im sorry ah.
this is just not the time.

EH NASHRIQ!
KAU APESAL SIA!
MSG AKU CARIK PASAL.
SIAL JE, KAU PIKE AKU ADER MASE?
LEK SUA, YOU THINK BY DOING THIS,
YOU CAN HAVE MY ATTENTION.
ps: i dont have time lah sial.
cb sia. apesal dgan sumer jantan sial ni sume?
macam fuck sia. damn it! aku takder maser lah
nak layan korg. sial lah! go away.
syakir called and say, "hello, u i saket, i demam panas, kalau tak u slalu tekapkan i."
me: "eh? gy mampos ah. bye."
(OO SACHOK!)
im sorry syakir.
i didnt mean to be harsh but i have to uh.
but, think uh what you have done to me. *sigh*
and, i forgot.
syakir: i tahu u da tak percaye i lagi, but do you still love me? *with his serious voice*
hais. bye!

syakir, i dont think that im gonna reply your msgs, answer all you calls now.

you msged me and say sorry,

"Im sorry for what i had done, i was wrong and foolish,

infact, i even felt embarassed. just take up my sorrow

apology, i cant take this much burden presurring me.

youre the reason why im still strong, youre the reason

why im alive just to give you love, care. i am sorry.

i could not stop laughing when we make jokes together

and laughing together. i still remember your first fall in my room,

it was hilarious. i didnt even help but i continue to laugh.

i remember our first kiss it was greatest gift from a girl like you,

hais. once again, im sorry."

(senang senang ke cakap sorry? hah!)

aku malas ah. takecare~

AND EXCUSE ME, ELFI!
DID I EVEN SAY THAT I WANNA GO ZOUK OUT!
what the hell?
JATOHHHHHHHHHHH BOY~
sial je, kau tak tau, diam diam sua ar.
haha. paisey siol bo-boy! bodoh nak mampos~
kalau kau da paisey tu, diam aje ah.
kau maner campor dgan aku lagi?
kau pon taktau saturday aku nak pegi mane pe.
sial je~
AND KALAU KAU NAK TAU, AZLINA ADER CHALET SIOL!
AND FINAH AJAK AKU PEGI DANCE CREW DIE
THEN KLUA DENGAN DIE.
KAU PIKE PROUD UH KAU TAU UH SATURDAY ADER ZOUKOUT SUME?
SIAL JE, AKU TAK CKP PON PASAL ZOUKOUT! fuckken hell~
ape cite sia sumer orang nak carik pasal hari ni. fuck!

I WANNA RELEASE MY STRESS THIS SATURDAY!

yeah baby. we'll dance,

we'll shake, we'll get high.

I can lie to others but not myself.

boys are basterds.
i dont need you lahh syakir.
i dont need you to breathe.
it's enough already.
thanks siol.
boys are basterds.
boys are toys.
boys will always be boys.
whatever sia. i dont care anymore,
what for i cry?
nah, im just scared that i will get boys like muhdnursyakir.
takot siol. please ah. i had enough!
kalau kau cakap sorry pon buat ape?
aku pon da tak heran lah ey.
BINAWEI.
tapi kan, i still got kama pe?
betol tak g-bon?
dier selalu ader untok aku.
bukan macam lelaki sial yang laen tu.
fuck sia!
thanks jana, azlina, yan, kama for hearing me out. iloveyouall!
it's the end. it's enough. we'll see kay cb!

I HAD ENOUGH OF YOU JERK!

this song like makes me melt sia.
lagu old school tau, very nice lah(:
sedap ah, macam true gitu.
dream about you- steive b.

dressing up~
going out later with kama and his small sister. (anisa siol)
nurin wants to meet anisa badly!
and im sorry nashriq. i cannot accompany you~
like i say, im not like the OLD SHAHIDAH.
aku tak senang ah, aku still ader perasaan untok fara.
ape dier fike nanti? aku bukan pompan takde hati,
yang slalu klua dengan laen laen jantan. hah!
whatever lah sia. fuck lah!
later we going to, i dunno where lahh.
and jana, apape msg aku okay!
you want to meet kn? okay bye bby sotty.

shucks man!
what's wrong with me sey!
aku luper ezzad punyer bdae, aku luper dee boonie punyer birthday.
wth sia! fuck myself lah. sial lah!
im sorry dee if i never wish you yesterday, on your birthday.
and, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DEEANA MY BOONIE BOON.
hehs. im so so sorry lahh. adoi. i feel bad sia. i dont have my pics with you.
tapi i think this is the last photo we all take together. the sasada. ):

i just finised watching football.
singapore vs indonesia.
2-0. ouh, congrats!
apesal sumer cakap bola is arnd 10+ sia?
padehal 8+ LIVE sia, at rcti.
kental. ni lah orang orang zaman batu. :P
wooo, it's true that singapore football player sumer hothot~
funny things happen sia while watch football.
here it is,
when singapore scored the 1st goal,
father: baek ah, baikaki score.
it was suppose to be baihaki.
*laughhhhs*
a few minutes later,
father: dorang simpan tu shah alam dulu tau, sebab dier dangerous player.
it was suppose to be alam shah! shah alam masjid siol.
father, you something sia! (that is what jan said)
then a few minutes before the match ends, jana called.
jana: eh apesal sumer tengok bola sia.
me: haha. aku pon tengah tgk ni!
me: hothot eh dorang.
jana: a'ah, lagi lagi si SHAH ALAM!
hahahahaha. si gundu ni pon sekaki dengan bapak aku!
korang something sia.
hahaha. and then, player name precious.
me: jana, apape besok aku call kau okay?
me: aku nak tgk bola,(:
SOMETHINGGGG SIAAAAA~

takecare st): i miss you. iloveyou.
i love you jaws. (:
i love you friends.
i love you bby!

FOURTEEN HARI KITER, SO MUST GO OUT!

today went netball.
aku got high fever siol.
thanks had, alifah, azlina, all my sweet netballers ah. (:
then, check class lagi. ruper rupernyer banyak sia melayu.
confirm kecoh pe. fajrina, nashruddin, isma alif(budak baru)
okay, tengok aje lah next year. :D
and, thanks to anisa, lukman and kama for making this bloody fever gone~
kakak kama lawa la. hais, jealous sia! pakai tudong somemore,
very sweet! nnt confirm si gbon tu ckp, "tgk lah sape adek die"
hahaha! mapek jer ni ikan pari cheesedale! :D
that jana rindu si sushi sey.
cey cey cey, woo. so sweet lahh korang.
last long, bby sotty(:

ps: i love my life now. nomore stress!

with my loved ones beside me,

i swear i will be happy.

till eternity.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MUHD KHAIRUL EZZAD.
i forgot sia. -.-
im sorry for all my wrong doings to you.
hahs. and, may all your wishes come true.
all the best in your life, biol!
takecare.

i miss getting kissed on the forehead.
i miss those flying kisses.
i miss those huggings.
i miss those laughings.
i miss those suprises.
i miss those birthday presents.
i miss those sweet messages.
i miss those phonecalls.
i miss taking pictures.
i miss those roses.
i miss those piyo-piyo rides.
i miss it when you tell me that,

"i love you more than anything in this world."

"and always remember that i will always be there for you,

no matter what."

"i want you as my girl."

"takmo maen blakang i tau b, i sayang u. i rindu u."

"i nak kawin dengan u lahhh."

~DAMN IT!

now at my makcik's house.
wahyuni at marine parade.
aku taktau sia aku balek what time!
wahyuni, besok pagi pagi kiter jumper kau okay?
(aku dengan azlina.)
and please ah boys,
aku serik.
aku serik bercinte.
aku taknak dapat lelaki same macam yang lain tu!
pakai aku, maen maenkan aku, basterd aku, prangai sumer.
wahsey! please ah.
i have not time for all this!

"Im sorry, please forgive me. please accept my apology."
"Even though how much you hate me and when we scream and shout,
i would just remember only the sweet memories and this crush
on you is not going to fade away".

(nashriq sent me.)

nashriq, im sorry if i didnt reply the msgs.
i just dont want things to get worst.

sekarang baru korang carik aku balek?

korang fike korang nak aku,

korang pakai aku. taknak aku,

buang aku. macam sampah!

senang senang je~
fuck sia, let me repeat.
im not the old shahidah.

kama, he understands me.

the rest sumer perangai. fuck lah!

thank you kama. :DDDDD
just let things roll okay?
tonight meeting wahyuni before she go kl tmrw~
jana, i hope you can meet us tonight. ):

"you go keje baek-baek okay?
takmo tekan-tekan tau(:
semakin hari, ku semakin rindu
tak dapat bayangkan diriku tanpamu."
okay, stop! bought red sandal from royal sporting house.
red tee and red sandal. sorry dee(boon) your colour sia.
tapi kan that time, red attracts my eye.
i tell you what, you people should go shopping now!
sale maha sale siol.
from $70 to $40-$30?
from $40 to $20?
go go go!

and to that guy.
jangan part hari 07 used to be our monthsary aje ah
nak jumper. nak pakai aku lagi? adoi. da serik siol.
aku bukan pompan murah. aku bukan macam dulu lagi.
yang korang pike korang senang-senang sey nak pakai aku.
hais! kau boley jumper pompan laen pe, apesal kau nak jumper aku?
pegi uh, celebrate today dengan pompan laen. minom sume! hah.
GO!
ader lelaki laen yang jauh lebeh baek daripade kau ah joy.
aku lagi rela jumper dorg, buat ape nak jumper kau?
FIKE AH! KAU SUKER TAK AKU MAEN MAEN KAN KAU?
TAK JUJOR DGAN KAU?
fuck you. takecaresiol~

yesterday, went shopping with sister and nurin.
town siol. ader christmas sale siol!
bought this tee-shirt. and ader satu ni macam dress ah.
sister blanje, i love you sister! (:
AND JANA,
im sorry~
tapi, hari ni kau paitau):
let's go arab street siol!
today, following sister to go shop again.
aww, shop till you drop!

JAWS.

"PENTINGKAN MEMBER, BUTO TINGGALKAN."

"SATU KENE JENTIK, SUMER RASE SAKET."

later going orchard. wohoooo~
to jana and wahyuni: chill lah bby. be patient and good things will happen to you.
and, jana yes. kiter da use to it da. suey siol today! fuck lahh.
im going to shop till i drop today.
wait! i miss these people.
arina.
aous.
sharmeele.
sakina.
liyana.
nuraini.
natahsha.
wahyuni.
all the mother tounge people lah. siol lah!
da tak same class sia next year.
da sec 4, dont play alright.
andddd, my classmate.
NURAINI AND NATAHSHA! i miss you all sia.
secret secret ingat? siol lahhhhhhh!
our(azlina and me)class next year is never gonna be the same,
without aini, natahsha. haisssssssssssssssss!

i bought that red wallet already siol.

i miss going to his house):

and, mulot aku takmo s a s u e y sudah!

adoi, wahyuni. im just joking around sey.

8 december? ohgod. takmo siol! choooyyyy~

and i really have fucking hell fun with beng and gori.

singapore sport school. wooo~

big siol. fun siol. and, that ausie boy.

makes me go wa wa wee waa. (sorry jana, if i use fansyuri's phrase):

look at the pictures, baby!

i know my current song is pathetic.
lagu lame siol.
tapi, there's alot of memories.
my fav song jugak.
azlina, you know kann?
haha. cabot!
nurin is calling me, "eh bibik, favourite show bibik, DORA THE EXPLORER!"
"do you love me?" oh, yes i do. hahah! you know, i know. (:
1300hrs- going out. meet him.
then off to meet wahyuni, going to singapore sports school.
if not, kiter jalan-jalan sua eh beng! kan you only have 3more days!
janny jan tsukiko san, thanks for your concern yesterday.
sanggop sey msg aku(:
ily jaws~

oh god.
one day, im going to be alone.
i regret all the past mistakes that i've done.
i regret shouting at my mom and all!
i know that my past mistakes all were not be forgiven.
shyt sia! rabak pe. im just scared! im just scared.
fuckken hell. scared sia! sometimes,
im just sick and tired of life when the boys thought that
im their property. siol lah! *slap forehead*
how many times must i say this to them sia?
"kau bukan sesape aku"
"kau pegi lah carik pompan laen"
"tak gune kau tunggu aku"
my heart is only for one.
mane boley kasi 3 or 4 sia?
tolong ah korang, faham aku ah.
aku bukan pompan yang korang boley buat pakai ah.
aku ader hati, ader perasaan.
i only need him.

walaoweyyyy.
hari ni sumer sway pe.
sumer AKU punyer salah.
AKU, AKU, AKU!
sumer aku yang tangong.
pegi lah side kawan kau.
sumer aku yng degil pe.
aku yang tak pernah nak dengar cakap kau pe.
apape lahh sia. like you say, "FUCK THIS WORLD LAH."
naseb baek lah masey ader orang sayang aku?
azlina, wahyuni, jana. i miss you. ):
and aqilah, woohhooo. yeah, true! NEXT YEAR CLASSSS GEREKKKKK PEEEEE!
she called me chita chtty chtty bang bangs~
so i call her,
A KILL KILL AHH BANG BANG~
like, a kill? a kill ahh, bang bang! *shoot, kill* (:

I WANT THAT PURPLE/PINK/BLACK BAG FROM 77TH STREET OKAY? $69.00
I WANT THAT RED WALLET FROM THE WALLET SHOP OKAY? $29.00
psst, and joget jumpstyle pon cool pe.
imagine ah, jumping around.
tecktonik lagi cool lah.
hah. ehhh, bye!
aku rindu sia die):

im scared to be in love, again!
im scared to be played, again!
im scared to be kissed.
im scared to be hugged.
im scared to be touched.
but all i need is you, baby.

FIRST december siol hari ni.
hah, aku da agak da lah elfi.
apape lahh siol. da tak heran.
check my class just now.
NEXTYEAR, 3N4 siol!
with,
azlinaET.
aqilahMB.
aousKONTOL.
kamaEAST-STAR.
suffiyanPAYO.
ipinGILER.
6-7malays. aous tak confirm pe.
i guess. 3 pompan, 3 jantan.
gerek lahhh kannnnnnnnnn! woooo. jambu!
and mother tounge kiter same dengan 3N2 lah kn diana boon?
like you said "we will turn the school upside down baybeh!"
wow, cool!
yang da naek sec four tu, takmo lupe kiter sudah.
i had hell fun with baby jaws just now.
at last, complete! haha.
fuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
ps: st, chill okay. i know how you feel. im here b(:
camwhore siol kiter. standard(: