god, please make me strong. please!
siala, ni bende bukan maen maen sia.
*sigh.
i seriously have no mood to blog about what happen nowadays.
eventhough im weak, im trying my best to fight this pain.
tc.

CIBAI LAHHHHH! AKU TAKOT SIAKKKKKK!
Only bestfriend and one of my boyfriend knows what i feel now.
Favour uh tkmo macam macam! -____________________-

Rusdi wants me to be his girlfriend yesterday. -.-
rusdi: u.. sudi jadi matae i? with his oh-so-cute-face. (cair skejap)
me: ouhh, ahhhh. lek ah. baru kenal tk sampai 1bulan.
rusdi: boley ah u.. i nak dengan u.. then he hold my hand.
me: *avoiding him becos satu makcik nmpk* u da giler pe, kan dorg kenal mak i.
rusdi: alaaaaa u. pretty please?
me: laughing* NO!
then he keep on msging me nonstop saying that he wants me to be his gf.
ya'allahh .. im just sick and tired of this siaaa.
im lazy to have a boyfriend. sumpah. please lah im tired.
i told him alrd that im tired of all these.
but he ask me to give it one last try.
Omg~ aku tk boley! aku taknak!
jantan sume same.
aku tk pasal uh aku hilang org yng aku syg, biar!
aslkan dorg bahagie. sebab aku da malas!

yesterday finish work at 2am.
went home, rusdi also went home.
then meet again, slack till 5am eh. everybody's not around yesterday(:
dont get enough sleep. cb!
so ya, then went to work with him the next day.
suppose to reach work at 4pm sharp.
but we both reach there arnd 4.20~
hahahahha. then went to the office to sign,
then my mum was like looking and her face was like saying. -dorg mesti pegi keje sesame tau. nanti korg! fierce siah dier. after signing, i went out with him. then my mom, shout, "SHAHIDAHHHH!" the rusdi turn around and look at my face, then i was like , ohh ohhhhh!
nvm, i just smile and went to the office.
me: ye mak?
mother: kau gy keje dgan rusdi eh?
me: ahhhh, ahhh. asl?
mother: mak da agak da, laen kali tkmo lambat! da klua saner.
phewwwwww~
then went canteen with him. haha. dorg da kacau kacau. siol, kawan keje jeee. eh eh.
then one of my team member, jealous??!?!?! wtf sia. aku tktau apape siol. oh, too bad. :D
19december i want off! wna go watch movie with him. nanti mak suspect lagi amek off sesame!
hahaha. susah doh keje dgan makkkkkkk~
okay bye!

Ive been working at airport sats catering since 3december. The work is so much better than fresh bulgoggi. tapi bored ah! fresh bulgoggi got my loved ones there.
Dkat airport nih, sume minahs and mats siulxzxzxzxz.
Ni case da takder harapan sia. mampos!
Tkkan nak buat kawan cam gtu je? Haha. Nanti kene cap step gerek~
hahah, but now, i have friends alr. kecoh sia, hahahah. my mom also cannot do anything.
mcm 99% of people down there smoking siah. hahahah! cb tol. it's been two days i went to work with that loading boy. r u s d i ~ my mom also know alr, keje je pe? :D haha! but she dont like rusdi's tattoo at his arm. siallaaaaaah ergh. nvm. yesterday overtime till 1am, loading pey budak budak da habes arnd 11pm eh,. 8dier sanggop tunggu. hehs~ then 1am kalau kiter overtime, company always give free taxi rides for us to go home. but yesterday, he ajak me go mkn. then balek take taxi. the fare is, $15.60cent sia. CB! tkpe, he pay. (: siol ah~ aku bleh jadi giler sia keje ni!
btw, dee. YOUR MOTHER INLAW IS SO CUTE! hahaha. rmbr when i told you about, how cute she is when, "deeana dgan acap skrg dorg kwn tau"
hahahahahahah! i was like, ya i know alr. hahhaa. KAWAN SIOLxzxzxz!
today going to work earlier siket, meeting him at tamp inter first (:
tc, loves.

yesterday work then got overtime till 2am sia. wah cibai! ya serious, like cibai.
tapi ot gaji mau lebeh ah! (: ader taxi plak tu antar balek, company sponsor. :D:D
and oh, wan rebel texted me yesterday. you trying to get me back? pukimak kau la. da ludah, tkmo jilat balek ah babi. kau nak sngt per dgan tu pompan sundal! dier kan single. :D:D:D
same ah korg kan. sundal(s). malas mau layan~
SUME JANTAN SAME. malas ah. sumpah aku malas. (:
wtv, i dont have time to talk about all this. what i know is that, i wna be happy. :D
y'knw i'knw that i ONLY can be happy when im with you. iloveyou!
today working, AGAIN. hope takder ot.

It is so much better without wan. no life siah! hahaha. kau nak dier? amek ah. aku tak heran, tknk tahu pon.
because, it's so much better. hahah!
i miss xxxx. working later. tired siah!

kau suke pe aku kacau kau pey jantan.
hahahahahaha. confirm kau tak suke pe?
tak cukop satu slalu gini. beh nak step setie.
gasak kau lah kan. (:
aku bukan pasal buto nak gado ah.
kau tau tak suke pe aku kacau kau pey jantan? haha.
tpi kau sndiri mau ingat lah kan.
kau tak suke kan aku kacau kau pey jantan?
tkpelah, everything's over.
thank you so much.

and wahyuni, you should be happy for me kay? (:
going to get ready for work now.
tc, sayangxzxzxzxzzx.

BOY, you can go to hell. and GIRL, you can go suck as many balls as you want.
-________________-
oh yah, oh i dont wna know and i dont care.
hmm. azlina, ape? da der org yang dier syg bey ckp tu kawan dier? haha. (:
biar lah kan. dier peh hidop. standard ah, tak cukop satu! hahahaha.
OMG! im so happy lah kan im single now. (:
so now, you can go entertain him like 4846513578642HOURS/TIME k? (:
it's over. im happy now, im moving on. (:

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA, i want to say somtg here.
now, i love my life alr.
wan takecare kay wan! :D

-________________- cibai.
yesterday worked inside the areoplane.
atleast got friend from same schl ah, zairul. (:
keje okay ah, but mats and minahs bersepah siulxzxz. it was my first time.
but they were friendly, cumer tak biase ah.
im alone somemore? nvm, nak $ per. (;
okay, going to meet my baby later. so ya, bye! (;

im down with flu and high fever. because i miss muhd nur syakir fucking damn much. <3
i swear, i miss him. ^^
get to meet him just now! hugged and im a lil okay now!
hmm. ok bye!

today working. whoa cibai sia. wah not working! aini atiqah entah eh? hmm.
and omg, i dream of that boy? i mean, kekasih lame.
i've been talking about him with azlina yesterday.
bukan [mengumpat] *your fav word kan dulu. ;D eh. cumer just talk talk aje lah kan.
skali sampai termimpi siol~
kkewakkkkkkk.. why i dream of you? you move on alr pah! tknk kacau kau ah bodoh.
okay now, i wna take a rest ah. v. tired!
but the fact is, i cant live without you. i still love you~
ergh siala, i dont wna think so much.
tc, loves. <3

riah texted me yest. (:
thank you babe. love kamu lahh kann. (;
niz, takecare and have a safe trip to tanjong pinang kay!
ingat kau peh [N] tau. tc siol a[N]iz! (:
and yesterday while wating for nadiah for half an hour dkat inter,
i saw that mother fucking bitchxzxzxzx~
whoaaaa, nak step tk nmpk aku jeee. sial!
standard ah, cam slalu! k e n t al. babi tol. *menyampah*
like people say, "standard ah dier, nk step tk nmpk bey nak step hot jee jln sorg sorg pompan then ader bodyguard."
azlina lagi sial, "oh kau nmpk dier? lawa?"
before i get to say anything, dier da ckp,
"dier mane pernah lawa siol slalu pecah ader lah kan kan"
kekek kekek sia~ cb tol.
then met nad and walk around t1, the walk pass syakir's friend work place.
then they say, "ehhhhh"
haha. memang sengaje nak jln dpan situ. cos i kinda miss his friends playing lan gaming together. then i was like "ehhhh, hi. syak takde eh?"
nyettt~ wtv lahhh.
then i took bus to meet norazlina mesnor. (:
then when im on my way home, jana called and we talked things out.
talked with her for like 1hr? (:
hope everything's gonna be okay~
*yayness* jaws going to watch movie and going to arab street~
weeeeeee. hope it gonna work this time.

just now talked to syakir's dad otf.
his dad: shahidah da tak jumper syakir lagi?
me: da tak uh cik. kenape? lagipon dier tkder hp.
his dad: dtg aje lah rumah. dier ader skrg.
me: hmm. tkperla cik. hmmmm.
his dad: syakir dgan shahidah da break ke ape?
saapppppp, dulu. "syakir dgan shahidah da tk kwn lagi eh"
skrg, da maju sehhh. "da break eh" (:
me: hmmmm. entahla cik.
his dad: cik tgk korg asyek gado aje, cik pon phm dier ader panas baran siket.
me: heh. a'ah cik. *i swear idk what else to say.
his dad: dala, pegi baek baek sane dan tkmo gado gado k.
me: ok cik, trime kaseh.
then at 5plus just now, SYAKIR CALLED AND I WAS ASLEEP!
and when i called him back, syakir da kluaaaaaaaaa.
wtfxzxzxzzxzxzxzxzxzxzx. aku rindu sia tuh anak.
aku salah pileh sialxzxzx. aku salah pileh! nvm la.
i wna sleep early today. i dont wna think so much.
tmrw werking.
IM TRYING SO HARD TO FORGET YOU,
but i just cant. noone understands me.

yesterday met wan in the afternoon.
then went up to kama's house, pinjam toilet. (:
then aniz suroh jumper tmpt inter to teman her to buy her stuffs.
tapi atlast, batt dier flat, batt aku pon flat siol.
idk how the hell to contact aniz.
so i walked all by myself to ntuc and bought sushi.
eat alone, then waited for her at small mac kejap.
then dier tkder, then i go afgan.
& hah. gasak kau lah nak buat ape.
kau ader kawan kawan kau kan. da tak perlukan kiter pe? betol tak? hah!
atleast kiter tak kutok kau rabak rabak peh lah sia! tk boleh kene siket eh,
agak agak kalau kau takleh kene siket, dudok dengan mak kau dkat rumah sudah.
atleast kiter still ader hati peh org. aku repeat lagi satu kali ah,
kau chnage kau nyer prangai kau yang mcm phm tu, and people will stop talking about you.
aku bukan nak ckp cam aku ni manenyer perfect ah. tpi da bagos tu aku tak kutok kau lagi jauh.
kau kan ader kawan kawan kau yang fierce tu. dorg tk influence kau jadi jahat kn cam aku.
heh. and oh, kau step kiter suke je kau campor dgan budak budak yang nak step bagos tu.
kiter syg kau, tu pasal kiter tknk kau pecah. tpi kau kan da besar kan.
mane nak spent time dgan kiter, slalau dgan dorg je peeeeeee. sudahlaaa.

Love,

i used to do everything with you. i repeat, everything!

i used to slacked/sleep at your house.

we always cook together.

we played games together.

eventhough only we both together, how boring it is,

you try your best just to make me smile and laugh.

we just dont care about people staring us outside.

like the world belongs to me and you.

but now, things change. and i dont wna hurt you anymore.

and i dont want myself to get hurt too.

i dont wanna elaborate here. nvm,

maybe if we're fated,

we'll be back again together one day.

if we're not, then just remember all those memories.

EVRYTHING! 2years is not easy to forget okay.

but i must proof to them that aku ni setie and tk lyn laki laki laen.

sumpah im trying hard.

im sorry if i've hurt you in any ways.

i dont know what to say anymore.

one last word, TAKECARE LOVE!

I LOVE YOU. it's okay if you wna go with whoever because im not with you anymore.

i know. but, im still here. take good care of yourself.

IM SORRY BOTH OF YOU!

JAWS~

ive been sitting infront of the computer, msging wahyuni.
crying and looking through pictures of jaws and the pictures of me and muhd nur syakir.
omgwawd. i feel like loosing my loved ones alrdy sia.
AKU SYG MUHD NUR SYAKIR!!!!!!!!!!!!
tpi asal mesti aku saketkan hati dier!!!!!!!!!!
kslda fjlsd tnltvnaeiynowtvynioynio

memang aku sundal memang aku sial!
tapi korg taktau, aku yang rase segalenyer sia.
azlina tau. sampai bile aku nk tahan.
aku da macam tkder life sia.

now i know that friends are everything to me.

i was just so stupid.

Meet wan just now and tell every single thing that i've lied to him.
I have to tell him the truth. Dier da tahu semuernyer.
thanks to jana and wahyuni? ya, good. if not aku takkan sedar ape aku buat. (:
siala, tu wan matikan aku gtu mcm je sia. -.-
im speechless and cannot say anything.
wan: kau blang aku uh ape kau bueh aku slame ni, kau tkmo nak lobang tau aku ckp ngn kau.
shahidah: ahh. y'know alrdy kn?
wan: kau lebeh baek bilang semuernyer skrg! *with his eyes* sialaaaa.
dgan pisau siak. sape tak takot siol. aku da cam nak mampos sia.
i dont know what to do. my hp da la die pegang. omg! sumpah, rase mcm hell sia.
but i think i deserve this uh. serious.
wan: kau tau aku syg kau beh kau lagi bleh tido dgan syakir pat chalet?
shahidah: speechless* all the way sia aku diam.
kimak tol! but everything is alright after that.
aku stress! sumpah aku stress. how am i suppose to be okay when [j]a[w]s is not beside me?
damn it sia!

17-chalet. maybe it was my last day meeting nursyakir?
18-meet aniz, then went to jana's crib.
19- planned to go maya with jan. tapi like somtg happen. then,
slacked with the 2boys dengar misteri jam 12 kapeee. huahua. kecoh ah.
tau aku dtg siang siket ah jadi aku bley nmpk si bodo tu dkat safron eh. nyett~
wtv lah kan.
I have something to say here.
Im sorry jana, im sorry wahyuni.
i know you guys tak puas hati with me.
i know you guys know me v. well.
aku taktau sia ape nk ckp.
aku stakat mampu ckp sorry je sia. please.
it's not that aku maen maen kan syakir okay.
aku 24jam dngn dier, and i am the one who is beside him.
so i know what's going on. im the one who feels it.
like i say, azlina knows.
but nevermind. things change alrdy kn?
*sigh* i just can say sorry guys. i love you all.
kalau korg tknk accept aku peh sorry, sumpah sia aku da taktau ape nk ckp.
tc korg. i love you all no matter what happen.
JAWS TETAP JAWS.
i cant afford to lose you guys.

eh babi, aku attach lah okay. aku attached!
please uh. get a life.
omg, im fucking tired and yet can still sit infront of the comp.
tmrw afternoon somemore! 12-5.
sialaaaa, naseb iqah start working tmrw! weeee.
oky, im really tired.
bye loves.

yesterday's work was fucking iritatting.
suppose to come 7mins earlier, then i come at 6.03.
ala, brape minit je sia, tu pon nak biseng. then wah and sri came,
haha! dorg kene lagi rbk. was fucking tired. sempat gossip siol smlm!
wah, "TEEHEES KAPER" tkmo step cute sia. mepek ah~ hah!
after working, eat mac, then tak prasan sia da pukol brape.
luckily lastbus 12.35! sui sui sia. wahyuni aku tktau plak eh.
hmm, abeh jam sia dkat lua! mcm cibai btol.
beh biler sampai tamp, 291, 293 da tkder! terpakse la jln balek kan.
luckily baby teman otf with me. reach home,
then wan scold me about getting home late and i tell him the truth that i work in the airport.
kewakkkk, dier mengamok sia. -.- atleast i tell you the truth.
okay now, have to get ready to meet baby now the go straight to work. yessa same with wahyuni again! TEEHEES! hahah. hmm today aini and iqah going interview, hope korg dpt kay! :D
JAN, wed tgk wayang kay. :D:D

my ppd low, AGAIN! because of you lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! -.-
today working the same time as wahyuni! yessssaaaaa. 6-11.
that day, baby fetch me back home then he saw this one malay guy work with me.
then he stare all the way. apelah! padehal dier takder pape sey. cumer work je dowwhhh!
and hot je! :D hees.
today baby sending and fetching me back home. best uh! :D
im going to be with you till death do us apart.
omg baby, i love you~

LOVE is wonderful okay.

it's beautiful, seriously. cumer pandai pandai jage ah~

i love you lahhhh gangster. huahua!
yesterday slacked with azlina.
pukewakkkkkk, i miss her alot sia!
hahaha. kecoh pe. syg lu!
yan, chill alright? tk pernah sia aku nanges untok relationship org.
but you & riah is just so sweet. serious!
korg will be okay punyer lah.
okay lah, going out to meet baby! :D
tc, loves.

I didnt realise that my true love was You.
Whenever i try to ignore your msgs and calls,
i'll feel regret.
& I start to miss you. And you know what,
i love you so much baby. ):
Yes, i admit that i dont know how to takecare of your heart.
I tell you before kan? But i'll try my best baby.
I can see that you change alr. (:
youre way too good for me alr~
tapi aku ni je mcm sial. heh. aku memang pe.
atleast im trying my best.
I'd never felt this way before.
Meeting baby later^^
i miss bestfriend! Norazlina mesnor!
since the starting of holiday, we nvr meet siah!
i miss getting caught with her, [sumer kiter buat tak kene] wth? -.-
i miss laughing, i miss everything about her~

Eventhough we quarrel like everytime.
No matter what happens, i still love you lah. :D
Dont be scared okay?
Hmm. tmrw working, again. hope get the same time as wahyuni eh eh.
but the people there is v. friendly. hot hot pon ader!
oops, sorry baby.
ala, like you say to me;
"cakap hot je pe, bukannyer pegang-pegang, bukannye cium dier"
same goes to you lah. i just say hot je pe. stakat tgk je, bukan cium dier pe? nyett~
okay now, i wna do my homework lahhhh~
oh yah, i forgot,
to you,
why must i care and think and miss/love you?
if you think i should, why you treat me this way?
you hurt me with every word that you say okay.
you should know ah what you say to me.
i hate you seriously. tc.

Sri wahyuni & Nur aliff sweet siah.
seriously. they are very sweet! last long okay.
that time aje da macam ntah lah! very sweet&cute. :D

i miss jana.
i miss azlina.
i miss wahyuni.
i miss dee.
i miss arina.
i miss aniz.
i miss natahsha.
i miss aqilah.
i miss nuraini.
i miss atikah.
i miss sharmeele.
):
i miss muhd nur syakir.
i miss my classmates,
i miss sitting in class, sharing problems and crack jokes with them.
not only missing evryone down here,
but i love them too. seriously. :D
love as in friends lah kan!
except for one. y'know i know. :D
did i miss out anyone? i think so. but,
for what i wna miss you if you treat me like cibai? hah! wtv. im happy now.
oh yah, i treat you like cibai too. same same lah kan. nyeeett~
jana, sorry didnt reply your msg.
my pp8 low.
hmm, watch 2012 with jaws?
anything. but see the day we jaws's free kay?

if this is called love,

then then then ..

go lah kn!

:D:D

starting to work today.
thanks syakir, alep, wah for accompanying me to interview yesterdays.
siala, 6-11 eh today! baru first day da kene balek mlm.
tkpe, ader org amek knn ^^
terserempak hanizan smlm! hahaha.
dier sempat ckp dier rindu [N] hahaah!
i know how you feeel!
i love my babys lahh kann! :D:D

HEY YOU UP THERE! HAPPY SIXTEEN BIRTHDAY!
enjoy your day today! see you later. ^^

My prepaid low! ninnabu. haiyaaaaaa.
susah lah wna contact my baby. *cries*
im going to miss msging/calling you in the midnight.
1miss call from ezzad?
Hmm. I also cannot ans your call because my prepaid low?
Baby's prepaid also low. Walaowey~
Im going to miss baby so much.
Nvm, tmrw can spend time together kn? :D:D
Okay, im searching for money ni!
bye loves*

Me: what you want for your birthday?
You: i want you to be my girlfriend. i want us to be like how we used to. please bby?
*silence*
Me: oh, ahhhhh. tknk apape?
You: i want you. you dont care eh?
*silent&smiling*
aku cumer speechless je~
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

suddenly wahyuni msged.
hahehu! wna know what?
"Just wna say tht im happy lah to see you and syakir. Haha."
RANDOM SIA KAU WAH! aku peh ppd low.
cannot reply. im proud uh to post this in my blog because i want to show it to you bloody bitch!
haha. kau yang bitch pe, jadi tk perlu panggel org bitch. aku tk psl kau nak ckp aku ape sumer,
sebab aku tau aku sndiri pon tk perfect. tapi da terang terang siol kau sundal! prangai pon mcm sundal. biar ah kau nk ckp apape pasal aku, tpi tkmo eh ckp pasal kawan aku sebab dier tak bersalah dkat kau bodoh! ni uh maksod aku prangai kau cam sundal. tkder keje laen pahhhh? huahuahua. stupid bitch! k bye.
i miss my bbygirls. <33

i had fun with aniz, azlina, acap, wan, nash that day.
hehs! kecoh ah~
these past three days,
alot of things happen yeah~
but afterall, it's fine.
im sorry syakir for not meeting you,
i got my own reason tau tau tau!
wait la till your birthday! :D
2more days lagi je pahhhhh.
hmmmm.
i just love you lahhh okay! :D:D:D

REBEL EH?

REBEL EH?

:D:D

talked to syakir just now. hehs.
syakir + shahidah = l o v e ?
eh syak? haha!
kecoh ah, lepas satu, satu! walaowei.
whtever it is, kiter da holiday ang get promoted somemore! enjoy lah kan besok! :D:D
jangan takot lah! my heart will always be with you! :D

TISHABELL'S DEAREST N! HEHS.
shhh.

tmrw going sentosa with babyS!
the going escape theme park at night.
baby ikot kay! :D:D:D:D
we'll have some fun.
i love you kays!
hmm. niz! edit gambar eh? haha basterd sia.
dkat muke buku ehhh?
siala, aku rase dier mcm tkder originality eh?
hahahahah! siala tu pompan! bahan kekek ah dier.
iritatting!
k wtv, bye loser.

Hey you both, study hard next year yeah. It's no fun without you all in class.
Gonna miss you both being in class with us next year.
Still need to move on kn? All the best.
ANIZ! HAIYAYAYA! I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL!
DEE! I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL.
Like i say, i feel this before. );
Sedeh per ramai stayback! mampos!
Haiyayayaya. Just dont give up okay?
Muhd Nur Syakir, da duer kali. ):
next year, study hard. dont let your parents down okay?
Im going to miss you, but nehmind, im still here. Your attendance lahhhh!
)))))))))))))))))))):
tc, loves~

I care for him, seriously.
Eventhough how much i hate you, i still love you.
Idk why uh, how hard we fight, mesti kiter baek baek punyer!
I just cant live without you. :D:D
we used to do everything together.
we used to meet each other everyday.
how am i suppose to forget you?
i love you, youre still in my heart. :D:D:D:D

Im speechless right now.

-.-'

I also have feelings okay.

kasdhkkadlfhkldknckladnvkldnvkdalvn okay? :D:D

I LOVEYOUALL! <3333

EH BODOH!
KAU MEMANG PE DASAR TAKDER PRASAAN!kau sume pompan lah kau nak!
ni uh jantan sundal. wtv siah -.-
kau kan takde prasaan!
you can go die okay? (: fuck you!

ape mau matae?
maseh awal lagi pahhhhhh. (:
single sua. jadi aku kalau nak menyundal dgan sesape pon aku peh pasal!
butoh! bukan mcm some people yo.
sial jeeeeeee. yessa! kau da bes skola. haha!
nanas, jaws. arina! i miss you all. ):
meet up soon aye!
lek lek sua eh hidop? bukn mcm kau. wth?
haha. im lazy uh. byeeee~

It's really fucking good tau having the one that you love,
always make you mad, always blame on you.
Die peh care pon cukop manis lah kan!
"Bodoh bapak kau ah". heh! Cool kan tuh?
Best sia. Nvm la.
Mcm aku ckp, aku da malas!
Da tak kuase lagi.
Ye ah, mulot aku mcm sial, prangai aku mcm sial pe.
Sumer aku kan.
Kla, gy buat apape kau nak sane. Im lazy lah kay muhd nashriq?
Kiter happy stakat seminit-sehari je!
Go with the girl that you like/love sane la.
She can make you happy always. K BYE!

Ape mau matae? (:
Maseh awal lagi ni nak matae.
Nak buat ape matae kalau lelaki sumer taktau jage hati pompan?
Taktau jage pompan betol betol?
Kecoh ah.
Im confused okay.

I was wrong to be in love in the first place.
But i'd never thought i'd be in love like this.
Im not suppose to listen to all your sweet talks.
Standard, boys.
I cant take this anymore.
Untill when must you lie to me?
C'mon lah. If you want her, just go.
There's no need to act nice towards me and there's no use
because you wont get me back. Go to her la.
KAU NAK SANGAT KAN!
Leceh ah ader jantan.
Sial la. Gy je lah dgan tuh pompan, tk payah nak carik-carik aku.
Tk pyh nak call/msg aku.
Tkmo nak step kau tak boleh hidop tanpe aku kay.
Cukop time padehal kau tak bole hidop pompan tuh.
Hah. Apape okay? I can say, all the best with her.
Goodluck. Kau tkmo step ape yng aku bobal ni sumer mengarot ah.
Aku tau ni sumer betol.
Dont deny okay!
she've got all that you want.
she very pretty, very nice towards you.
bobal pon baek baek pe dgan kau.
bukan mcm aku.
aku kan mcm sial?
hehs!
k, BYE!

i love each and everyone of these people, as friends lah kan.

they never fail to make me smile each and everyday.

i swear! with their own stupid lame jokes.

i swear it's iritatting everyday. but it's fun!

some of us, quarrel quarrel jugak, afterall, we're still friends lah kan!

hahs! hope each and everyone of us will get promoted next year, alright?

*pray hard!*

you guys rawk! \m/

I AM SO HAPPY TODAY.
azlina, you know i know!
friends can last forever okay.
boyfriends mcm sial ah.
susah nak ckp.
haha! sumer mcm sial je! hahaha!
whtever it is, im happyyyyyyy yo! (:

to nashriq and whoever you like/love/admire or whatever ah,
OR to that girl who love/like/admire you.
goodluck kay korang. i LOVE TO SEE KORG LASTLONG!
dont fight fight. heh~ tckr!

I miss talking to you in class.
I miss your stupid lame jokes.
K whatever.
Hah! whatever.
aku sayang aku peh sayang banyak banyak!
my ex boyfriend is very cute.
hah. my used-to-be sweetest ex.
he told me that we're gonna be together soon. *wink*
boo! you stupid bitch. kau tak laku lah.
stop attracting his attention bodo!

hah. school like cibai.
and oh, guess what?
today is the fucking first time i cried because of my boy-friend. i mean, close boyfriend. emotional ehq aku! of course lah kan, used to be very close and share secrets&problems together. heh! whatever lah. standard guys! apape la.
buat jelah ape yng patot dibuat. i dont wna say anything.
to you nashriq,
whatever kay? suker hati uh.
da taknak masok campor with whoever you wna contact/meet or whatever.
let me repeat, tknk masok campor.
hah! BYE!

JANGAN NAK STEP TAK BERSALAH LAH SIA! *whatever face*

OKAY NASHRIQ!?

sapppppp!
kalau kau rase, kau nak dier kan.
gy lah korg! aku tak marah!
sebab aku da expect this will happen.
aku bukan budak kecik lagi okay.
aku bukan budak bodo kay. i can think and i can see.
kau pike aku tkder prasaan pe sia?
oh, bile aku buat kau, kau tau marah.
abey biler part aku? aku mesti diam ah?
sudahla.
aku tknk masok campor lagi.
have a happy life! goodluck in your lovelife yea!
and to that girl too.
hehs(:
I DONT CARE AND DONT WANNA KNOW!

whtever it is now, enjoy life lah kan.
im just scared about my end of year results.
that's all.

I dont really care what happened because i knw from lasttime that this would happen. Heh!
apape okay? Im sorry too if i have to leave you.
If we're fated, maybe we'll meet one day.
So yeah, takecare exboyfriend.

Somtimes, im just thinking, why is something must be this way and not the other? *sigh*

I miss you so much. I love you so much.

But what for?
You told me to change, but you? *sigh*
Hey, every single day i meet/msg/call/laugh/cry/quarrel/EVERYTHING
all with you sia. And im the one who feels the pain. So i have the right to ask you to change too.
I love you, seriously. I miss you, swear!
I dont want to see you hurt.
Im sorry if i try to avoid you nowadays.
I swear, i know that i cant take care of your heart.
I KNOW THAT MY ATTITUDE IS LIKE CHIBAI.
I KNOW I ALWAYS MAKE YOU MAD.
I know that i always dissapoint you.
and youre like giving me 12546985759456325145263chance.
but i just dont appreciate it.
I know sometimes im iritatting.
But hey, it's because i love you okay.
I know i cant be the girl that you want.
I seriously dont know what to do. Omg!
I try to avoid you, but i just cant. I mean, we just cant.
The more i avoid you, the more i'll miss you.
It's like i cant live without you for just a day.
I SWEAR I STILL LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART!
I SWEAR I MISS YOU!
I promise i wont play your heart,
I just dunno what to say and what to do.
I just kept it all in my heart.
Bestfriend knows everything. heh!
Okay, this is what i feel like saying!
so yeah, takecare people.
Lastly,
I STILL LOVE YOU BABY! (:
I DONT WANNA LOSE YOU OKAY? (:
youre just one of a kind.
~i never thought i've been in love like this.

I really understand you baby,
that's why i act this way.
I love you,
no one else is in my heart except you.

EEEEEE. sialah! pecah nyer. ape cite yang aku serang rumah kawan baek kau?
hotnyer crite kau tuh. ape? hari raye tak bole dtg rumah kawan baek kau uh?
what's so big about this? ceh! dgar dgar aku yng nak pegi pe. aku stakat call doh!
sudahlah! atleast aku pon tahu malu lah sia nak amek gambar dgan lelaki yang da tak suke and taknak aku. ahaks! k wtv. happy happy selalu! apape k. crap~
Live your life, bitch!
Tmrw is my last paper, cpa.
Finish early, yay! so can meet him yeah? (:
Aku syg kau, tapi kalau patch, leceh lah.
Kene ni, kene tu. lecehhhhhhhhhhhh doh! hah.
chill dulu lahh kay~
Azlina, chill okay? Lek babe. syg lu!
Aniz best kan tadi shopping! hahahaa. mcm sial je ehq~
Saw wahyuni and arina when im going back from pr.
Hope i passed all my subjects. Amin!

Hey im gone for good. I hope you get what i mean.
I dont wanna be a fool. This is way too much yeah.
Take good care of yourself. Move on!
And oh, to that ex of mine.
Patch? Im sorry. Hah! Wtv lah.
I know that you fucking peopl will say that "ahh, mcm phm lahh."
Say whatever you want. I know my limits lah, sial(s)!
Dont stress me up with all of your nonsense can.
Fuck la. Exams siol! Kay, apape.
But only he can make me happy lah!
Hah! see! i started smiling again! (:
My classmates know about this~
da, diam!

I LOVE YOUR CUTE SMILE.
*melts*
heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
whoaaaaaaaaaaaaa, i feel like smiling everyday when thinking of you(:
ONLY YOU! ONE AND ONLY! THE REST ALL LIKE CHAWCIBAI!
*heartpain*

Actually i lazy to blog uh nowadays.
takpe uh, lagipon si due berok tu pon da complain pasal knape tak update.
Everything's changed. I mean, jaws. I mean, wahyuni. Nvm, goodluck with alep!
I wna see you happy. Maneelaaaakaaaannnn. cehcehy! apape kts kn? (:
fucking shit lah!
aku da kene tipu due hari straight siol dgan nashriq. hehs.
i know, karma. hah. im tired of all these.
seriously i dont care. sumpah!
because i know something! *wink wink wink.
dont want to think too much. exams tmrw!
you three can just fucking leave me alone okay. i had enough.
dont wanna stress stress about you three. please? give me some time.
since the 30september, i keep on smiling! heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
im lazy to elaborate! awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww! im smiling again! (:
lazy to fight. lazy to find fault uhh nowadays.
sebab dorg pike dorg hebat sngt!
btw, sentosa that time was fun. (:
lastly, i hate you three boys. you guys are so fucking iritatting!
im tired alrdy.

On monday, things was just not right.
Fuck, it's two times alrdy. how can i be with you?
i cant take it anymore. must be patience? till when?
till you hold a knife and kill me?
OMG! im sorry if im going to act strangely or what.
aku tak boleh siah! aku tak boleh!
thanks beloved friends for cheering me up.
Today, i get to forget about what happened on monday.
Wooohoooooooo, i love it~
Thanks love for making my day. (:
i hope tmrw's gonna be okay. im just going to continue smiling no matter what happens. depends uh!
tc readers.

Breaking fast on friday was awesome. i love you all<3
and now, i just feel like blogging about someone.
fuck lah. i just dont know what to do.
i feel like quiting school.
so you'll not see my face anymore.
i feel like changing my telephone number.
so that you wont get to contact me.
aku tak bole, aku da tak boleh. sumpah! ):
i just cant take it anymore siah!

Im seriously going to improve on my studies.
Hais, many teachers are dissapointed on me.
Yeah. im dissapointed with myself too. ):
Nvm, i'll work hard on this coming end-of-year exam. (:
thanks for loved ones who always gimme support.
i love you all<33

I'd never thought that i'd be in love like this.
I'd never thought that i'd fall for you as hard as this.
I still love you<3

slacked just now.
aniz, aku nak gambar! (:
then went to pasirris. fucking shit!
ade hal pulak. *sigh. then quarrel with nash.
it's like dont know why! im just fucking scared.
thanks kama for sending back home.
it's like what the fuck lah today.
first day of fasting somemore!
i seriously feel bad.
i love you, i dont want to lose you<3
):

I MISS YOU, JAWS!
I LOVE YOU, JAWS!
IM MISSING JAWS LIKE FUCK SIAAAAAAAA! ):

Spammers, get your own motherfucking life lah. Please.
I didnt disturb your lifes ape? Asal nak kecoh kecoh? Cb!
you want attention isit? you wna talk bad about me?
you wna tell everbody? you wanna make up stories?
It's a fasting month anyways, heh. If youre wna find fault,
by all means. come straight to my face uhh sials. (:
zaman bile mau spam? pukewak, aku bilang kau dulu ehq, sume tak menjadi lah musibot.IF youre brave enough, by now, you all should have confronted me? HAHA! so, this shows that korang kental nak mampos punya.
Whatever it is, find a fucking life okay? Stoops.
And btw, somepeople just get wrong info from somepeople eh! Paiseh ah babe.
hahahahaaa. laen kali tkmo confident. huahua~

Hey spammers.
im being nice here.
Like the passerby say kan,
my vulgarities are sooo got to go. so much of proving myself a MINAH.
wtf. aku bukan minah. patience has its own limits per. betol ape noone is perfect.
then, dorang mane peh perfect nak kutok kutok aku? tgk diri sndiri dulu uh siuls.
hehs. im not trying to be impolite here. i AM being polite. (:
so, if you think you still wanna continue this shits, go ahead. say it straight to my face. you all not corwards kannnn? (: i tell you first,i will ignore the spammers and if you're not happy with me.
come find me! i'll always be there. im not like some people, corward!
mcm spammers sume ni uh. brani pat tag je. (:
hehs, have a nice day. be happy with your life.

going out to study today with him.
iloveyou okay. (:

BUTOH UH KORG SUME, MCM PHM!

eh, nampak aku pat geylang pe? uh meh nanti aku tunjok kau sape kau nampak pat geylang! butoh uh korang tkmo mcm phm eh! butoh lah kawan kau satu da pengecot nak mampos. mcm phm plak tuh. nabey! yeye sia. butoh lah! korg ni sume kirekan pengecot lah kan musibot! korg sume same. haha! perangai anjing bodoh korang. eh, tkmo jadi kental lah nak spam spam! abey bende yang takde nak diadekan. wtf sia korang. tkde bende laen pe siah korg nak buat? PUKIMAK. STAKAT NI JE PE KORANG MAMPU. sialaaaaaaaaaa. sape yng mcm phm skrg? kalau kau tak puas, bley confront aku pe! korang sume bobal je banyak. cibai! biase uh. budakbudak macam paham paaaaaaaaaaah? HA HA!

today was oh-so-boring.
damn it.
my sayang(s) all tk dtg.
huahuahua.
nvm, get to meet him after schl. *loves*
and oh, im so so fucking down right now.
im so so so so so fucking sad. damn it lah!
favour uh siahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
im just praying hard. for you! iloveyou, you know! ):
im praying real hard! hope god will listen to my prayers.
AMIN!
hope tomorrow will be a nice day.
tc, *loves*

otp with syakir past few days.
wow, hah. i also dont wanna talk long long.
*nak step kakak-kakak rabak je ehhh syak? basterd sia!
see who's the one lah talking about you, bitch.
im just listening. whatever~ i pity you seriously.
because nanti she going to call me chepeast slut or something, AGAIN?
or going to bitch about me? oh, (why i care) suke hati kau lah.up to you. bende yang slalu tkde kau nak buat ade kn? heh. whatever~
ape die nash? *tarek socks tinggi-tinggi eh!* hah. biase la, ader hello kitty~
butoh uh sia korang, pike aku ape?
pompan murah uh? kimak. puas hati kau ckp depan muke aku sial.
tkmo stakat stare stare atau bobal blakang pasal aku uh.
tk gune, sumpah tak guner bodoh!
bobal dpan muke aku. korg nak gado sngt kn?
nak benci aku sngt kn?
STAKAT tu je uh korng mampu buat/cakap?
korg kn hebat, tunjok uh kehebatan korg dpan aku yang kental ni.
nak gado sngt kn? jom kite rentap! LAI LAI LAI*
bodoh nyer minahrep(s).
lek sua nak panggel aku minah eh.
prangai siape mcm minah skrg? kiwak! fools.
korg nak start kan? ok, aku pon join uh kan.
kalau tak, tak fun pe kalau aku diam diam.
whatever it is im going to end here.
tk puas hati, jumper dpan muke aku, bodoh(s)!
aku bukan nak step fanay uh macam korg.
korg nak carik pasal kn. aku tunggu je babes.

Today we celebrated national day.
I just love my gf(s) lah.
[jana
wah
azlina
aniz
dee&arina
nuraini
aqilah
natahsha
meele
atiqah
faj
ayu]
wah! they can drive me crazy.
belom campor all my other guyfriends.
prangai sume kunek siah.
I'll post those pictures later.
Nashriq,
im going to miss you.

I've deleted all my dirty post(s).
Lagipon waste of time talking about you, bitch.
heh. you call me cheapest slut kn? eh, wy?
k uhh, smrbg. ouhkay then, reflect back uhh what you say to me.
kau suroh aku jage mulot aku? diam diam.
buto uh. mulot kau yang patot jage baek baek uh.
tkmo smbrg. aku da malas ah babe nak bobal pasal ni lagi.
standard uh, crite da habes. kau nak bukak crite balek pe?
stakat pasal jantan ah babe. wa wa~
sorry eh, yang fanay tu kau, bukan aku uh. kau kan da memang terror.
you want your flip-flops back? go ask jana.
ok bye! all the best.

tmrw amp. i wanna sleep early.
tmrw i'll update evrything.
gundu peh pompan!
orang tak bobal pasal kau pe? cukop uh.

i've been wanting to post all the pictures siah.
but i have no time. lots of math homework need to do somemore! kecoh siah.
i seriously cannot stand it uh. in schl also wanna stare stare?
ohh, korg kan mane peh besar kan? wakakaka.
tk puas bobal uh. kate kakak kakak pe? bobal uh, kan? hah! suke hati korg ehk.
tk suke aku? ckp. ape lagi? hahaha. whatever to you all. seriously, aku da malas.
let you all be what you guys wannabe.
Aniz, NOSEEEEEE eh? haha. name nak step mane peh baby jepon ntah, baby cine? pecah!
Dee, you love your class isit?
I love my class too. 3n4 gerek nak mampos gile babi peh!
Imagine ehk kiter combine. pukewak! kechio~
camp da macam nak roboh tu siah tu building N4 & N2. hahhha.
3n4 is also like fucking fuck siah. prangai satu satu mcm ninabey cibai siah.
i wna do math homework now! i love you all~
even if anyone hates me, i still love you all.
da taknak carik pasal pe kan. kay, takecare, loves! (:
tmrw meeting you yeah sweetheart, dearest. i love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu okay!?!?!?? (smiles)

DAMN! MY BLOG IS LIKE FUCK UH.
tmrw i'll do it back.
tc, loves.

yesterday~

so who's the bitch? huahuahua. nye nye nye~
school was like hell. that bloody miss tan uh! nye nyeh nyehhhh! fcuk. whatever.
i ignore her just now. just follow what she wants me to do. *tknk buat hal*
have to go counselling. damn it! nasruddin and kamaruddin! stop disturbing me lah.
with your, "saket lah bodoh!" fcuk. da uh, crite lame pe. (:
i just feel down just now. it's all because of norazlina. i just dun wna say la.
nvm, i just love you all. i can say today is a bad day. maybe tmrw too?
i just miss someone. (insert sadface).

went amp late. standard! arnd 9+ meet nash under his blk,
actually yan was waiting for us at afgan. but i want to eat under the blk first.
then, yan came. and mengamok! "ohh, buto aku tunggu korg kat afgan, kau lagi bole mkn!"
then i was just smiling. (: sorry uh gangster!
yan kental bodoh! hahah.
just now get pranked with faiz yusoff! sual lah!
basterd sia korg! haha. but funny! cey, aku step nanges kapeeee.
today was fun, seriously.
get to meet youu, youu, youuu<33.
only you know how much i love you.
jaws too(:
tc, loves!

superheroes does not exist. hah!

thanks for making my da yesterday, babies(:
thanks for all the wishes.
heh! espacially that s a y a n g.
princess kape! last long ehk! *wink. ily~
today, im very fineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
i just love azlina today! die mepek nak mampos.
spent time with her dkat tamp like hours! (:
and ya, fcuk! aqilah didnt come! ):
get well soon, mumble(:
and today is fine because he meet me, slacked with me just now~
thank you tau. ____ ~ ((: dont wna elaborate more. dah!
okayla, tc loves.
i wna sleeep!

stupid bitch!

to passerby:
heh. whatever you wna say(:
what a fucking bad day just now.
i love you baby! i just love you.
kay? i love you kay kay. (:
i love you very muchh! y'know i know. wink*

lek ah, aku taknak carik pasal dgan kau yang hebat ah(: chill~

happy birthday mama tersayang. (:
i love you, always! mwahhhh.
wished aous also just now. heeee!
mane ade lupe? aku ingat. ^^
okay, going to buy mother cake now!
hope you enjoy today kay.
i love you so much, mak.(:

it's my problem anyways! fcuk.

school suck bodo.
eh, aku peh pasal lah.
mind your own business. :P
kau lagi, tkmo kaypo kaypo kay.
stupid! everybody in my class, hates you!
and i know your lovely friends hates me alot!
but who cares? i dont care ninnabu! (:
tkmo terase ah babe.
if it doesnt concerns you, why you care? bengs!
whatever! aku da malas nak entertain korg peh mepek.
ape aku nak buat, aku peh pasal lah.
tc, have a goodlife.
go suck balls lah! hahuheho.
meet jana and wahyuni at garden just now.
jana, wahyuni, miss you vmuch!
wahyuni, relax okay. and that bitch is a bitch. sumpah!
da org tu bahagie buat gituh. biar lah.
just chill. (: annnnnd,
and jana's tounge is like fuck you know!
winner sedap sedap dier taknak. hell you!
i love you all kay.
skali in the bus, terserempak dee&arina. *wink!
y'know i know.
tc, loves!

im addicted to the song.
i dont wanna know-mario winans.
i know it's an old song. but, it's fucking nice.
thanks to nasruddin for making me addicted to this bloody song.
and when he sing this song, he'll do with the beat.
and, now, the whole class is still practising how to sing and do the beat.
haha, sial uh ni class.
satu-satu all like kanasai. but i love them. (:
im glad that i have classmates like them yaw~
espacially the girls,
faj, ayu, qila killer, lina sat sat they make my day in class, always!
plus jaws, nanas, dj, aniz! (:

Heroine.

I think you can do much better than me

After all the lies that I made you believe

Guilt kicks in and I start to see

The edge of the bed

Where your nightgown used to be

I told myself I won't miss you

But I remember

What it feels like beside you

I really miss your hair in my face

And the way your innocence tastes

And I think you should know this

You deserve much better than me
I can’t take another day without you

Cause baby, I could never make it on my own

I’ve been waiting so long, just to hold you

And to be back in your arms where I belong~

ps: eventhough im single,

doesnt mean i must be with you what? walau.

dont force me. thanks!

people come, people go.

ya, you suck.

AKU SAYANG JAWS GILER BABI!
my heart, my soul. <33

i dont wna blog about just now. because it's fucking fun.
i dunno how to say uhh. so fun! so cute. so hot~
tknk gaduh-gaduh. tk bagos, and buang maser.
tc, loves. i wna study.

up you to tell everyone stories about me, because i really dont care.
heh. lagypon it's my life. and, what i can only say is 'stop bitching about me to people whom im not closed with' hah. if you dont wna stop bitching, then it's your problem. youre seriously wasting your time, bitch! kalau kau bole buat, aku pon bole! huhu. so, we'll just wait and see.
but, nvm i dont care. because i have my loved ones all by my side. heh!
he told me evrything about you, haiyoyo! what the hell you want from a guy?
hope you find a prefect one, takecare. aku pon da malas.(:
yesterday was seventeen, and it's fucking fun. never get to watched movie, because arina and wah went to bugis alrdy. i came back from shcl at about 5plus): they watched harry potter.
it starts at 5, then i came back at 5. like cb!
because of him lah! cb~ nvm, syg punye pasal. (:
then arnd 9 plus meet wah and arina, first arina have to go.
followed by wah next. planned to meet him a bit later. haiya! but arina and wah go so fast! so endup meet him arnd 10. kiter spent time untill like there's no tmrw(:
bby, atleast aku tk desparate/nak apape dgan die/nak attention die. wawaweewa! y'know, i know. jana, get well soon, i love youuuuuuuuuuuuu~ i love jaws too!
jan, hp pade nash. ltr i ask him to pass to you bby.
okay, i got to bath now. meeting him!
aniz, kau siap kene detention on monday! gundu!
tc, loves!

after what happened yesterday midnight, i swear i dont turst boys, anymore. fuck la! hais.
ya, im single. and i love him v.much! i love him more than i love myself.
sorry okay nash? tmrw is our 3rd monthsary though. (:
just remember the day, ahh. just remember lah.
to whoever is having a relationship now,
last long okay! tkmo jadi sials mcm aku. (:
last long, seriously!
boy, lu paitaw sia! huahuahua. kaninnabu):
*waiting for you to call* wawaweeeeeewaaaa~
nvm, i'll just wait. tmrw's schling, i wna do my homework now!
tc, loveeeeeees<3333

Hello. hehs.
just now fought with nashriq in schl. wow! but now, everything's fine~
nicolle, thank you for telling nashriq. seriously! if not, he wouldnt know a single thing.
huhu. alot of things happen recently, but i just let things roll.
you must have patience. that's it, and TALK things out.
not shout, cry, venge your anger or show tantrums.
it wouldnt help. kate melayu paahhhhh? bole bobal punye pe?
hidop mau steady. hehs!
just now, counseller wna see me & nash.
the cctv caught evrything~
oh so, i think everything is okay.
so you bitches wna wait for another fight between me and nash isit?
or waiting for me to have another fight between me and syak?
heh. cmon, i know what is right and what is wrong.
you wna talk bad about me also, i dont care.
because i know it's my life. not yours. heh! (:
what? i get one guy after i lose one isit?
oh, youre worng uh. seriously i treat them as friends uh.
tapi, mcm suddenly the feelings ade gitu.
ya, i admit imma bitch? so what to do? im alrdy like this.
even if it takes a thousand/million/billion/gazillion times to try,
if he loves me and i love him. what can you do?
you wna break us apart? you wna be jealous? that's your problem.
and btw, girls like to flirt. but i dont flirt like you! (:
ya, and i know my own limits. say whatevery you wna say.
i dont wna fight with people anymore yaw, kalau nak.
just talk and let things settle fast.
and if you still wna drag those things and dont wna talk, it's your problem.
okay, i pour everything i wna say alrdy. so, just be happy in your life. <33
beloved bby, i love you so much. youre my everything! (:

hah. it's you who told me to go with him.
last long with him. takecare of him. hah! aiya.
oh, abeh skrg mcm gini uh?
like i told you, i dont wanna fight. hah, because of a boy?
oh yah, maybe because of a boy that you loved so much.
if you cry also, he'll be there for you.
i seriously dont know what are you both up to,
till i saw the pictures and those msgs. hah!
sorry syak, i got to go. thank you so much! hahehu.
nvm la. tknk gado siol!
da malas. apape, tc alryte(:

muhd nashriq, ala.
kau peh pasal lah!
bobal pon tkder care. tc!

oh, today11/07.
cey! azlinaaaaaaaaaaaa, kecik siol! huahuahua. pandai eh skrg! (:
goodluck anyway baby.
firstly, met nash just now. studied.
then off to meet wahyuni. then meet syak!
ya ya ya ya ya. fight fight fight.
ala, da la. btw, your photos, he&she, she and he, so sweet lah siol!
hahuheho. sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeettttttttttttt! next time amek byk byk lagi. (:
i dunnoe what else to say lah. tc!
oveall, i had fun today.
tc, loves.

i treasure my loved ones.

nthing much happen these few days.
i just love spending time with my friends/loved ones.
they make my day, evryday! (;
after that incident.
i felt that i love this family very much.
now then i feel the love.
haiya. c:
i wna do well in my studies.
dont want to concentrate on relationship first!
just go with the flow lahh kan.
family first! (:
not going to dissapoint my parents, again. anymore, forever!
i love them, very much.
i treasure my loved ones! everyone.
tknk carik musoh.
i wna study now. nyte!
and, besok date 11/07/09. mcm sui kan! (:
the date ive been waiting for. cool!
tc, love.

lancau uh!
aku benci siak lelaki werl.
besar peh werl.
sume jantan same siol. mcm pukimak!
janji-jani dorang buang tong sampah sua, sumpah dorg gy mati sua!
cibai. oh sorry,
i think tmrw gonna be the last time im going to talk to you.
i dont wna disturb you and her. nnt org pike aku perampas.
yela, aku kan prangai sial. jage die baek baek siol.
tkmo buat pakai die, tkmo bobal werl dgan die. tkmo uh mcm sial.
IM SICK AND TIRED OF THIS MOTHERFUCKING THING!
tc!

HANA, I MISS YOU TOO. (:
haiya. smile always!

and b b y l o v e,
i miss and love you v.much!
everything's okay now. i dont care and i dont mind. hah!
i wna write lyrics now.
feeq, you can take that song.
i wna write new song.
jiwang jiwang siket. (;
takecare lovessssssss.

konichiwa,
schls just getting worst.
get detention just now because we left schl early yest.
it was supposed to be 3.30. but we left at 2?
with aniz all. kecoh bodo tu aniz! babi betol.
pasal kau lah aniz, kiter kene! motherfucker. (:
schl just now was okay-okay uh. i study okay.
and, i've done my physics homework alrdy.
physics teacher ms tan siuls. fuh! tonggang terbalek uh.
dala, skolah maken boring ade uh! ):
haiya, sume perangai sia hari ni. tatau knape. walau!
hope tmrw's gonna be okay.
tc, love.

LET'S FORGET ABOUT FIRST JULY,
AND YOU CAN JUST GO FUCKOFF WITH THAT BLOODY BITCH.
I DONT CARE ALSO. TC,
L I A R.
and btw, my simcard is blocked.
so, dont bother calling/msging me anymore.
fuck, go die la. bye!

hello people. im so fucking pisssed off right now. maybe babylove know why. maybe jaws knows too. it's about family. fuck, i like wanna runaway from home again. but, it's a waste of time. busok busok pon nanti aku balek jugak! NO. i feel like running away and not coming back forever. dorang nak sangatkan. selalu nak ungkit pe!
dorang nak aku carik my real ones kn. memang aku berterime kaseh uh dorg amek aku. tapi wtf sia? tak payah ungkit pe. aku taktau satu bende haram pon about the past. so kenape kene ungkit sia! fuck. kalau da taknak aku, buang je aku. eventhough im not your blood, im still a human pe? ps: i got feelings. ergh! i just need love and attention in this fucking house lah. i dont ask for money pon. tu pasal aku hari hari klua. because im lack of all that. kalau korg nak aku hari-hari dudok rumah, aku boleh. aku cume mintak love&attention korg aje sia. tk bnyk aku mintak! aku bukan patong, bukan robot. im sick and tired alrdy lah. *sigh. tmrw schling, motherfucker!
TAKECARE.

back at 3am yesterday. transformers gerek nak mampos siak! siala.
i want to watch it again. woohoo~
&sesape nak call/msg aku tk dapat/tak reply. sorry okay.
HANDPHONE AKU ROSAK SIA! NABEYCHAWCIBAI. damn it!
fucccccccccccckkkkkkkkkkkk. aku punya kekaseh rosak siak.
i cannot live without it sia. aku nak handphone. apape hp uh, asal kan bole call/msg!
tak perlu ader camera sume. ):

watching transformers midnight later with sister, and all~
hahuheho. harap-harap fun lahh kan.
tmrw maybe going town with babys dgan west siders? im not sure uh tu lina(:
and idk why im so so so so so so so f u c k i n g happy today.
post more later when i feel like posting kay! (:

i just cant sleep yesterday, and i dont know why.
i miss someone so badly. alaa, confirm youll say whatever.
haiyah, nah. nvm. okay people, I WANNA SLEEEEEP.
nights, sweetdreams. i love you baby, i cant live without you..
(you never fail to msg me goodnight msg everynight)
but now? brrrr.
everything changed.

just came back. penat suals! after this, i swear im going to sleep!
actually planned to go to picnic.
but then, lastmin Dee Julitte cannot make it.
so nvm, j a w s je. so meet up with nat and aini, dgan adek aini-rizal. (:
kewak! rizal tu da mcm anak die sia. rizal gangsta siol! kecik kecik da gini. haha!
tgk uh, kakak die kan minahrep? peace! (:
erhm, arnd 9plus azlina have to go and help her mum.
so i helped. jana & wahyuni headed to aous chalet.
after then, i came. luckily aous friends were very friendly. seriously!
bukan macam matrep matrep yang nak step mane peh garang! :P
WAH! ENVY WAH! ENVY! c:
after jana went home, left with me and wah.
and, fera and the other girls uh. dorg also friendly.
overall, it's fun. fun, and very funny. i'll post the pictures later. *wink!

JANTAN SUME SAME.
PRANGAI SIAL!

YOU MAKING ME LAUGH LAH NASHRIQ!
thank you v. much!
oh, nash? die prangai mcm sial. sumpah la sia. aku sndiri da takley tahan. mat rep mat rep, wannabe~
kwang kwang kwang! aku da cukop sabar.
and oh, something happen.
NASHRIQ,
oh yah. "jgan treat kao peh jantan mcm mane kau treat pat aku"
eh siala kau, aku peh suke uh.
and, JANGAN TREAT POMPAN KAU MCM MANE KAU TREAT AKU.
kau kan treat aku mcm anjing kau gitu.
ingat je uh ape aku pernah buat untok kau sume.
ape aku da buat sume. ye uh, tu sume bole bayar balek pe.
takde hal untok kau kan?
sume jantan same lah sume! sialan.

babylove, i wanna marry you.
i want you to be mine, forever.
i want to be with you, forever babylove.
i sayang you, i cinta you dengan sepenuh hati. (:

im sorry people for what ive done in the interchange yestd.
i didnt mean to do that. seriously, im sorry.
and sorry to syakir if i treated you like what.
i screamed at him outside the interchange. i know i was wrong, im sorry.
and to nashriq, same same lah kiter binget smlm.
kesian 2dlr hilang. *wink*
ala, dala. everything's over okay!

to baby st:
haiyah, i know what you feel.
i really know how you feel.
but, you must be patient okay?
i know it's 2times. i know.
all boys are like this la. nvm, we're still here for you baby.

sorry friends if i deleted the tagboard.
irirtatting sia satu satu.
to elfi,
AKU CHEPEAST SLUT EH?
PUKIMAK KAU LAGI BAGOS DARI PUKI AKU EH?
AKU PELACOH BESAR EH?
cmon lah.
aper sia aku buat dkat kau?
aku tkder apape hal dgan kau kay.
lgypon aku ader hal dgan kwn kau, nuwaira, bukan kau sia!
aku peh hal dgan die pe, tk payah masok campor uh.
aku tau uh nak bobal dgan die.
KAU TAK PAYAH NAK SEBOK UH!
abey kau nak carik pasal dgan aku?
kau ckp aku pengecot peh blog eh?
hah! skrg ni kau maseh tak puas pe?
sume aku da ltk name pe.
ape lagi kau nak, KANINNABEYCHAWCIBAI~
takde kene mengene kay panggel aku pelacoh, maki maki aku free flow sume.
HAH! KASI KAU PUAS KAY!
and pasal syakir,
TAKDE KENE MENGENE DGAN AKU KAY!
hah. die yang taknak turon pe?
ape yng aku tarek tarek die?
kirekan pasal aku, die jarang turon uh ni?
kau tanyer die sndiri uh asl die gini!
kimak, abey ape sume slh aku pe?
CIBAI UH PRANGAI KAU ELFI.
pasal ni je kau kene panggel aku pelacoh abey maki aku uh sume?
kau pon takecare jugak uh, fucker.

going to johore today. tc, loves.
to someone,
take good care of yourself okay.
dont do stupid thing kays!
youve grown up and you can think,
what is right or wrong. (:
i love you very much.
i want nobody, nobody but you.

today, slacked around.
yessssssssssssssssssss, fun!
j a w s & a r i n a.
n a n a s & dee,
wednesday kay babys! (:
heeee.
jan mengamok sia tadi.
nak klua satu satu iritatting! haha.
sat- shahidah go johore.
sunday- wahyuni ader family day.
monday- azlina go airport take her mother.
tuesday- arina&dee got ngaji.
satu satu satu sia!
hahahahah! JANA PEH PENG! sorry la sygku.
haha, wednesday kay! (:

fuck sia.
what the hell is wrong with him?
what i do sia? you never tell me that you want to meet me what?
so what now? my fault isit? haiya.
standard uh, da tak dgan aku kan.
orang-orang suke carik pasal.
haha, dala. aku budak baek.
tknak carik pasal lagi.
KENTAL. aku taktau apape.
aku maseh adek adek lagi.
hah. whatever lah kays.
i just dont know what the hell is happening uhs.
takecare, ly.

Relaku menunggu mu,
seribu tahun lama lagi
Tapi benarkah hidup ku kan selama ini
Biar berputar utara selatan
Ku tak putus harapan
Sedia setia.
Relaku mengejar mu seribu batu jauh lagi
Tapi benar kah kaki ku kan tahan sepanjang jalan ini
Biar membisu burung bersiulan
Tenang lah gelombang lautan
Ku masih setia
ESPACIALLY FOR (INSEEERRRRTTT NAAAAMMEEEE)!
(:

apape jadi, aku tetap chill je kayy.
aku bukan sehebat cam kau.
tapi an, stakat tu je pe kau mampu..
kecoh~

live your life.

im being strong and moving on.

im strong alrdy. i changed alrdy.

NO MORE CHITA(:

takecare.

everything's over

to someone:
apape kay sundal? (:

nashhhhhhhhhhhhrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrriqqqqqqqqqqqqqq,
im going to miss you(?)
im going to miss the moments we shared?
im going to miss garden?
im going to miss holding your hands.
im going to miss your hugs.
im going to miss you kiss.
ah fuck la. it's all fate alrdy kn nak jadi gini.
hah, next time, treat a girl nicely.
oh, we'll see who's the lucky girl.
thanks for the love. tmrw, our 2nd month. but..
tc, l o v e.

abey kenape!!??
kenape kalau aku syg die?
hah! bodola. aku peh pasal la!

untok orang orang yang kental macam koraanggg. kwang kwang!

to someone.
pukewak. kalau kau nak spam aku,
blang aku uh sial kau siape? hah.
kimak uh, kau mane peh mane sial kiter nak knal kau!
haha. bodo punye sundal. eh, utang ape sia?
utang mak kau pe? hah! kunekkkkk eh kau.
rahsie bongkar dkat nashriq. eh, kau werrrrrrl sia! hahaaaa.
pompan murah? pepek da jual?
hahahaa. eh pukimak, hidop aku pe.
menyusahkan kau pe? aku layan korg pon takder gunenye uh.
layan korg peh diri sndri kay sundal(s)?
hah! bende yng tkder, tkmo diadakan uh eh?
aku malas nk lyn budak budak gangster computer! haha.
kalau kau pike kau mane peh hebat kn, jom jumpe! kaninna.
tc siol~

TODAY WAS SUPER FUN!
just came back from morning.
and now going out again.
hahahahaaaaa. cibai sia tu azlina.
aku syg kau kay! (:
met nashriq alrdy.
oh oh, (insert name), he msged me.
azlinaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. tlg aku! (:

!FUCKLOVE. shiyt.

aku smbrg~
kalau kau tknk call aku sampai besok pon aku tak pasal.
aku smbrg kay boy?
hah! pike baek baek.

to a woman so heartless! hah.

pukewak!
tak berterime langsong siak.
da bagos la sia aku tlg.
kalau kau tak appreciate tu kau peh pasal la k. hah!
hah. post pasal kau pon aku rase buang maser je untok kau kan.
whatever alright. hah! buat uh apape kau rase betol.
aslkn kau bahagie sua. hah. aku da cukop kesah pasal kau,
kau tak hargai kn? aku kecewa la dgan kau kan.
tkpe uh, kau da besar kn? know what's right and wrong. okay then.
hah. all the best~
apape tetap jaws kn? tu pon kalau kau nak kn?
think uh.

tak jadi pegi johore):
maybe tmrw.
so later going out to meet him. *wink*
not going for camp tmrw! hhuhu.
jiwe pe sia sumer tak pegi camp besok. haha!
tc people. c:
1211,syg. huhehoha! *happy happy*

DEEANA, ARINA!
i never hug you both enough laaaaaaaaaaaaa.
sorry tk ikot korg tadi. haiya, i guess i miss the fun.
damn! but, i have to settle things kn?
jumpe korg soon okay.
Love,
it's not that im getting bored with you or what la.
tapi, pasal p e r a n g a i uh.
hope you realised la kay.
i cannot be like the girl you want me to be la.
im not like your beloved ex yng takpernah buat u marah la kn?
i s e l a l u buat u mrh kn? huhu.
im sorry okay.
i dont know how many times must i say this.
i just cannot take it anymore laahhhhhhhhh.
THIS BLOODY LOVE IS KILLING MEEEEEEEE. damn in! fuckanaaarden~

to the one i really love and care for:
im sorry, i have to do this.
it's for your own good, okay.
fike uh babe. i know this will repeat again.
cmon dear, buat gini sume tak dapat apape.
menyusahkan orang lagi ader, kn?
aku tahu aku lagi mcm sial prangai.
tapi, aku stakat advice kau je k.
kalau kau nak dgar, kau dgar, kalau kau tknk.
up to you, like you say. it's your life.
kau beruntong dapat mak yang kesah giler babi pasal kau.
abey aku? hah! kalau kau pike, kau rabak.
ader org lagi rabak daripade kau kay.
tkmo sampai jadi police case uh, susah nnt.
trust aku lah, aku da pernah kene, aku tau.
aku bukan nak step mane peh mane uh.
tapi, once again, aku advice kau.
the phrase yng kau ckp gini,
"iritatting sia korg buat aku gini"
k fine, memang ah aku tahu perasaan kau. i know it's iritatting.
tapi it's for your own good.
okay, skrg ni. kalau kau nak, aku da tak akan masok campor lagi okay?
sorry if i have to do all this. it's actually for your own good.
but it turn out bad for you. *sigh*
anything, just call or msg me, IF you want to.
i'll still be there for you.
TC!

nashriq,
pegi pancing tktau bilang pe.
iritatting pe. kater nak call, org tunggu sia. apape ah~ aslkn bahagie sua! hah.

TODAY:
meeting jana at pasir ris. arnd 1plus.
okay, im going to talk to you okay! hais.
at 2.30, meeting my bbys go watch movie! (:
update more later. tc, loves!

DURRAH NURUL JANNAH,
balek kay. balek. pandang orang yang sayang kaw kays.
kiter syg kau sia jana!

thanks for understanding, friend.
i promise i wont hurt him anymore.
wahyuni, i had fun too! netball oi! c:
azlina best pe kene prank! hahahaaa. nenek kaw~
jana, think about the ones who need and love you okay? *sigh*
tmrw, insyallah kay wah. maklom la. da gdgirl(:
hrm, kiter da relax, dier plak macam BOMB! waaaatttthhhaaaafffuuucckkk?
okay, wna watch anugerah now!

I just need you in my life.

I just want you in my life.

Nothing else that i want in life.

I LOVE YOU, BABY LOVE~

I feel that our love cant go far.
When will this feelings stop
When did it start
How can I listen to my mind
Withoout breaking my heart
I am so confused
I cant think of anything except you
Should i ignore you or give time
Honestly, I cant think straight
My heart controls my mind.

Baby, i know ive dissapoint you with my behaviour just now.
But think uhh, how you treat me lasttime?
I know it was lasttime, but i want you to realise how much it hurts.
Okay, about just now. I know im !fucking wrong.
Im sorry, and i wont repeat it again.
But tell me if you dont want me anymore.
Im prepared for it, byy.
Tc, babylove.

maybe not going to camp this friday.
fuck la.
to someone: you just go to sleep all long lahh okay!
GO! hah. tc~

just came back from bedok, [kendarat] tired sia! but i had funn with my classmates. serious! love you all kay! c: (i admire boys with long side-burns?) huhuuhahaahoooho. kay da!
get to hugg azlina very tight becaue today is our friendship day baby! ((:
thanks baby for being there when i really need someone to be with on the 4th of june.
you were there 24hours beside me. seriously, 24hrs. thank you baby, i love you<3.
thank you jana for letting me sleep at yr house, for letting me charge my hp! (:
thank you wahyuni for being concern too.
azlina tak boley harap! ppd low. haha(:
no matter what, iloveyougirls the most. c:
tc,kays! loves~

before:
today,
going out with family~

hope i'll be having fun later.

wait!

iloveyoukays~

imissyoukays~

noonecanhaveyoukays?

noonecanloveyoukays?

^^ huhu!

JAWS TAHU(:

after:

went home alrdy.

huhu. yes, superfun! get to buy all my stuffs.

going to meet smallboy later.

buying him something. (:

so, meet you later ya!

to: (:
alright. thank you friend.
yup, ni sume monkey love aje kn? ^^
yay! just now got to meet jana&wahyuni.
sorry jana, pasal aku hp kau jatoh.
haha. ape kesah? aku lagi berharge dari hp kau pe? ceyyy! tau la die. (:
cume ni azlina je belom jumper! nnt kau, aku hug kau kuat-kuat! cium kau skali k! (:
friday kay babys? friday! (:
thanks smallboy sebab sanggop teman beli barang. slalunye tak sanggop kn!
atleast you get a treat from me what.

nashriq,
i know im not your perfect gf la.
and i know i cannot be one.
i cannot give you what you want, aite?
aku bukan perfect macam kau peh ex.
im sorry, love~
enjoy life.

LOVE:
nur shahidah.

J A W S.
i love you. i miss you.

eh wtf sia. recently, aku takder jumpe syakir lah oky!
ape sia? hah. lain kali tkmo smbrg.

and one more thing to one more person.
siala, aku takder ikot kau dari tamp mall, t1, sampai tmart okay?
da uh, kau suroh move on pe. senang-senang je pe.
hah. da uh. tc!
okay uh, skrg aku da malas uh ni sume.
okay, gy lah dengan kau peh hidop.
thank you very much!
okay, i guess i know the reason why you asked to move on alrdy. hah!
da malas ah! bye.

why does love hurts?
hah! im lazy already la. so ya, tc.

i feel like posting this pictures. so, yeah~

i want this year's amp to be like last year's lah sayanggggggggggg):

long long long ago sia~